Attention ||BOOK 2|| Park Jimin

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Grace Xiu

"It's like 'what the hell, Grace, you just found out your boyfriend cheated on you with someone you hate and you think you love this other guy already'?" I paced around the room, moving my hands as I talk.

Jasmine and Ashley were on the bed with their legs crossed, listening to my problems like therapists.

"Should I still be devastated that Seokjin cheated on me with that hoe, Cathy? According the the rules of breakups, shouldn't I be in bed and crying my pupils out? SHOULDN'T I BE EATING ICE CREAM!? Look at me, I'm not!" I stopped and opened my arms wide. "I'M FINE! WHY?!"

"Wh-Why?" Ashley flinched.

"Because of Jimin." My arms fell back to my side. "Because of him, I'm feeling a lot better than I thought. Not just with this, my friends. I'm talking about what happened with Minho too. He made me feel a hell of a lot better!"

They nodded, still listening closely.

"Jimin Park. The man who loved me, then cheated on me and broke my heart, then tried to show off his girls to me, then tried to intimidate me, then acted soft at the Starbucks back home, then made trashy videos, then tried to talk to me and only made me feel like sh*t, then came on this trip with me, then became my hero and best friend." I rubbed my temples. "Jimin. Jimin. Jimin. Jimin. What do I do, Jimin? What are you doing to me, Jimin?"

"And now, you love him." Jasmine clicks her tongue.

"I think I do. I'm pretty sure I do. But I don't think I really do if I have to think about it." I sighed. "What the hell is happening? Do I love Jimin? Do I not? Can I? What?"

"Are you going to do anything about it, though?" Ashley asked.

"I don't know! That's the thing! Seokjin said he didn't love me anymore because I was still hung up on Jimin. What would happen if I just got back together with Jimin right away? Right after what happened! Is that healthy? Is that against a set of rules?!"

Ashley and Jasmine looked at each other, as if speaking with their eyes.

"I know I shouldn't care, but how bad would we look on media?" I stared into the wall mirror. "How bad would I look? Jimin already has a bad reputation and I don't want him........I don't want him to be hurt about that anymore."

"Why don't you have a chat with him about that soon? Communication is key." Jasmine holds a finger up.

"I will. Maybe tomorrow before the party. Maybe tomorrow morning? Sometime, I don't know." I sighed heavily.

I sat in between my girls and they both hugged me from the side.

"What the hell is wrong with me?" I shrugged. "Why am I not feeling like sh*t right now? Why am I not crying still? I just lost a boyfriend that was so......important to me and I don't feel bad."

"Because you didn't care about him that much." Ashley rubbed my shoulder.

"What? I did."

"Did you?" She raised her eyebrows.

"Of course! If I didn't care for him, then why did I stay with him? He was the sweetest to me. How could I not love someone who treated me we-.......well?" My head lowered.

I thought of Jimin.

"Your feelings probably dropped completely after what he did. If you were crying, that would mean you still love him and want to be with him." Jasmine said. "But you're not crying, meaning you don't have feelings for him anymore."

"What he did was.....worst than Jimin." Ashley says, stroking my hair.

"Worst? How?"

"Jimin cheated on you with a random girl. Seokjin cheated on you, with no shame, with someone you hate." Ashley explained.