Nothing's Fine

Chapter 10

I can’t remember how long I had been sitting out here, but I was obviously late to my ‘meeting’ with Liam. I shot up at the sound of his voice.

“Are you testing my ability to remember our hiding spots?”

“No. I’m sorry, I just_”

“Can you please stop saying sorry?”

“But, I am sorry. I didn’t want you to think_”

He shook his head. “I don’t get why you’re apologizing. Wasn’t it me that screwed us up?”

“There wasn’t really an ‘us’ so no. You didn’t.”

“That’s bullshit and you know it. You wouldn’t have be so pissed off if_”

“You were my best friend Liam!” I lost control of my temper; something I wasn’t used to.

“Ah, there’s my Sarah.” He smirked. “Come on. Come up to my room.”

“No. Let’s just talk out here. I need to go soon anyway.” I looked off in the distance.

“Why? Just stay the night.”

“I’m sorry_”

“Stop it!” He groaned.

“Stop what?” I groaned back. He smiled.

“Come up to my room. Just for, like, an hour or two.”

“How about thirty minutes?” I knew I was pushing my luck. So did Liam.

“A minimum of an hour. If you want to leave after an hour, I’ll let you leave.”

“That doesn’t seem fair.”
“Why? Because you know that you’ll want to stay?”

I didn’t respond. Instead, I turned around and faced the creek. I listen to the water splash against the rocks, before feeling Liam come stand behind me. He placed his hands on my shoulders and began to rub. I wanted it to hurt, and to be quite honest, it should have considering what I went through earlier today, but it didn’t. It felt good. I stood there, letting him press his fingers into my shoulders. I dropped my head, as I heard him chuckle.

“Come on Sarah. How about this? Instead of going up to my room, let’s stay in the living area, maybe watch a movie? You know, start back to where we started.”

“We started out here.”

“Yes, but I was shy back then and didn’t want anybody in my house.”

I sighed and turned to face him. I was too exhausted to play this game with him.

“What do you want from me? Liam, you heard how I feel. Nothing you say is going to make a difference. Do you want me to pretend like none of that happened? To just go back to being besties? Is that what you want?”

The smile that formed on his lips was scary and at the same time, alluring. He stepped within my personal boundaries and placed his lips by my ears. His hands found my arms and held on to them. I closed my eyes as his thumbs started caressing my forearms.

“I know that. I don’t want to talk about that because I know its gunna take time for you to even trust me again. What I truly wanted to do was go into the damn bathroom and wipe the shit you put on your face to cover up the bruises off. I knew something was up when that other server was standing by the doorway; I just hadn’t figured it out. Mrs. Shay confirmed what I already thought had happened by saying that you returned bloody. Now, am I gunna have to carry you in there, or are you gunna follow?” He whispered in my ear.