Perfectly Imperfect

Perfectly Imperfect - 33

Chapter thirty three

Nakatingin saakin ang maluha-luhang si Blair. Alam kong hindi siya makapaniwala sa narinig niya.

"What?" tanong ni Blair habang hawak ko pa rin ang baywang niya.

"Naaalala na kita." Pag-uulit ko sa sinabi ko kanina.

Kumunot yung noo niya. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang expression ng mukha niya. May trace ng galit, saya at pagkalito ang pinapakita nito. 

"No." sabi niya at umiling siya. Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang inalis ang pagkakahawak ko sakanya. 

"Nagbibiro ka ba, Jared?" Tanong niya. Nagulat ako sa tono ng boses niya. For the first time, nakarinig ako ng pagod dito. "You really know how push my buttons kaya alam mong maniniwala ako at madali mo akong maloloko diba? I'm tired of being fooled, Jared. Kaya please lang, kung pinati-tripan mo ako tigilan mo na. Kasi baka maniwala ako. Ako rin naman ang masasaktan sa bandang huli. I don't think my heart can afford another heartache." Mangiyak-ngiyak niyang sabi.

"What? Blair naman. I'm serious. Hindi naman kita kayang lokohin. Mahal kita, Blair." Tinignan niya ako ng matagal tsaka siya umiling. Tumawa siya. Isang napakpait na tawa. 

"Then, bakit mo ako nakalimutan? Now and Forever diba? Bakit ako pa, Jared? Bakit ako pa yung kinalimutan mo?" sabi niya habang hinahampas ako gamit ang palad niya.

Pinabayaan ko lang siya. I deserve it. Kung hindi dahil sakin, hindi siya masasaktan ng ganito. And I'm hating myself for that. I hate to see her so vulnerable and weak. Fuck, feeling ko napakasama kong tao. 

Sinabi ko 'Now and Forever'. Tangina, hindi pa natatapos ang gabing 'yon, iniwan ko na siya sa ere. Wala na. Wala ng essence ang 'Now and Forever'. Anong ginawa ko? Pinabayaan ko siyang mag-isa habang ako, nagpapakasaya sa taong akala ko mahal ko. 

"I don't know. Blair. Hindi ko kayang sagutin 'yan. Pero ang alam ko, masyado kitang mahal to the point na kaya kong isacrifice ang buhay ko para sa'yo." Sinabi ko ng nakayuko. Namumuo na ang luha sa mga mata ko. Pagtingin ko kay Blair ay nagtraydor na ang isang luha at pumatak ito sa kamay niya. Napatingin siya dito at nakita kong muli ang pagmamahal sa mata niya. 

"You really remember me?" Sabi niya ng nakangiti. Tumango ako.

"Look, Blair alam kong madami akong nasabi masasakit na salita sa'yo. I'm so sorry, okay? Pinagsisihan ko na lahat 'yon. Maniwala ka sakin, kung naaalala kita hindi ko sasabihin ang lahat ng 'yon. You know how I was back then. Walang someone special sakin kaya ko 'yon nasabi. Believe me, Blair. Pinagsisihan ko talaga 'yon. Hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko para mapapaniwala kita pero I'll do everything para mapatawad mo ako. Hindi ko sinasadyang makalimutan kita. Kung makakapili lang ako ng makakalimutan, I'm sure as hell that I won't choose you."

"Alright." sabi niya tsaka siya humalukipkip.

"Blair naman ang haba ng sinabi ko 'Alright' lang ang masasabi mo?"

"No. I just can't put everything I want to say into words. So I guess this would be enough?" sabi niya at hinila niya ako papalapit sakanya tsaka ako hinalikan. 

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And when Blair's lips finally hovered over his lips, he almost gasped with impatience. She was teasing him and he was aware of that. With the little amount of strength that he had left, he tilted his face just a little to send him the message.

She got the answer and he was suddenly crushed against her and her mouth devoured him in a desperate grateful, hungry kiss. One hand restlessly roamed around her back, the other ather nape, holding her head for a deeper kiss.

Mindlessly. her hands spread across his chest and she felt his muscles tighten. Their breathing were coming fast, but neither of them chose to break, knowing that if they did, she would come back to her senses and the magic would go away. Heat was coming fast and they could either extinguish it or take it to higher heights.

The door banged and a horrified Julie went into sight. "Guys, get a room!" She shouted at the top of her lungs. 

They both looked at her breathlessly. The crimson red blush crawled onto their faces and they both looked away.

"You guys have some explaining to do." Julie tapped her right foot impatiently on the floor.

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"Oh my God. You're not kidding, are you?" Sigaw ni Julie kay Jared. Gulat na gulat siya to the point na napatayo siya habang tinuturo-turo si Jared.

"Geez, woman, why would I joke about something so serious like this?" sabi ni Jared. Halata na ang pagkairita sa boses niya. Hindi man lang sinubukang itago. 

"I know right. Ganyan din ang reaction ko nung sinabi niya saking natatandaan na niya ako." sabi ko habang nakatingin kay Julie. Gulat na gulat pa din siya. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang mukha niya. Mukha siyang constipated. "Oh my God, the others must definitely know about this." sabi niya sabay kuha ng phone niya. Kaagad namang kinuha ni Jared ito kaya napatingin kami sakanya.

"Don't," pinagtaasan siya ng kilay ni Julie.

"I need to have a word with someone first."

"Shit got real." Bulong ni Julie. "Payback's a bitch!" dagdag pa niya.

"Yeah." Pagsang-ayon naman ni Jared.

"I'm sorry to burst your bubble but what the hell are you guys talking about?"

"We're talking about the bitch who made your life a living hell. That bitch don't really know when to stop, does she?" sabi ni Julie. Punong puno ng hatred yung pagkakasabi niya, para bang siya yung nasaktan.

"If you're talking about Zy, I'm totally fine with it. Besides, yung mga nangyayari na yung kabayaran sa ginawa niya. No need to add lime to the open wound." napatingin sila sakin, yung expression nila parang sinasabing: Are you serious?

I nodded slowly.

"No, Blair. She made you cry. There's no way we're letting her get away with this. This is war, Blair." Sabi ni Julie. With the fire in her eyes?

There's no way na mapipigilan ko pa siya.