finding thea

Chapter 57

LOGAN POV

Watching her leave was the hardest thing to watch. After everything I've been though this week, watching her go, sank my whole body. I knew I pushed too hard but I wanted to help her. I wanted to be there for her as she was there for me. I wanted so much more for her than I could possibly give.

"Just give her time," Brandon said.

"When is her mother buried?" Evan asked.

"I think in two days," I said.

"What does she mean she already has said goodbye?" Jeff asked.

"I don't know," I rubbed my hand over my forehead. "I'm going over to Jake's," I told him.

"Bring body guards," Jeff called out as I left.

I rolled my eyes and got into my car with two shadows following me behind.

Once I was at Jake's, I spotted Tony and Thea writing the song in the studio. He was sitting on the table while she was playing the keyboard. Jake was there too but he was sucked into his emails on his phone that I bet he wasn't paying any attention. I knocked on the door once and they looked up.

"Hey," Tony said.

Thea didn't look up. She had her headphones on and was concentrating on the notes that I think she would miss the tornado warning if one was to come.

I took a deep breathe and sat next to her.

"Let me help with the lyrics," I said. She looked up once then nodded.

Hours later, the song was done. All we need now is to record it and shoot it. I had most of the time whole Jake has a couple in the end. Team Ten will be his backup singers and Andy and Evan will be mine. Everything was great but I felt the distance between Thea and I. She avoided me most of the time but it wasn't obvious for most people.

I am not most people.

I watched the way she moves so gracefully and let her passion for music flood our ideas. But I noticed the way her body tensed when I sat next to her, how she takes an inch-step away when I stood near, and how she avoids eye contact when me.

My heart swells and I was mentally exhausted.

"Thea?" I grabbed her hand. "Can I talk to you?"

She nodded.

I led her near the pool where there's a couch and a LA view. She sank into the huge couch and I noticed how much weigh she lost the past week. I was so focused on what was going on with the rest of the world that I forgot what was happening beside me.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked.

"You want to talk about it. I don't," she injected.

"Thea, I am sorry I pushed you too hard. I really, from the bottom of my heart, never meant to hurt you or disrespect your decisions. I only wanted what is best for you," I said.

"What you think is best for me," she said.

"Tell me," I reached for her hand. "Tell me what do you need."

She was silent.

"Thea, I know something else happened. I don't want to push you but it's eating me inside to see you sad. I want to help. I know I can't push you because you are strong headed and you will push back. But promise me you will let me in. Let me carry some of your burden as you did for me."

"Is this what it is?" she asked.

"What?"

"You feel the need to know me because I was there for you? Logan, I didn't do the things I did to get your pity," she asked, taking a step back.

"No," I said. "Damn, I am saying it wrongly. I don't mean that at all, Thea. You should know I mean no ill-will for you. I only want to help and it pains me that I can't."

"Don't you think the reason I don't tell you is the same reason why I can't?" she mumbled.

I was confused. Her voice was cracking and I recognized the strength she had to pull to gather herself together before she falls apart. I pulled her into my arms and hugged her tight. It was breaking me to see what was haunting her break her.

I know Thea is strong despite of what she been though but sometimes, the strongest person can be defeated by the demons in their head. Every angel has patches of demon fur, and ever demon has scars from fallen angel wings.

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