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placed in their third year on graduation day
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in your point if view. lowercase intended because i'm lazy whoops
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⠀⠀⠀⠀ "here's to the class of xxxx!" the principle yelled, and the kids cheered, throwing their hats up in the air. their gowns were a dark blue, and so were the hats. as they caught the hats, many were crying. i was soon to be one of them.
⠀⠀⠀⠀i was in love with Kuramochi Yōichi. and if i didn't tell him today, i probably never would. i couldn't believe that we were graduating, and i couldn't go on into university without knowing if he loved me back. and today, i was going to ask him.
⠀⠀⠀⠀i pulled on the sleeve of his gown. he turned to me, his smiling face bright. "take a walk with me?" i asked, and he nodded his head. as we walked away, i got more and more nervous, but i had to do it. i would never forgive myself if i didn't.
⠀⠀⠀⠀it was when we got all the way to the baseball fields, way away from the rest of the graduates, did i start talking. "let me get straight to the point. ever since, oh i don't know, our first year, i guess, i've been in love with you." i admit, and he didn't say anything. i don't think he knew what to say. so i filled in the silence. i was shaking, but my voice was surprisingly steady. "i've loved you for about three years, and you've only found out now. whenever you got a girlfriend, i would smile and laugh, telling you i hope it lasts. but i was envious. i envied the girls you dated. does it make me a bad person to say i was happy when you broke up with them?" i ask, taking my time in saying this. i had to choose my words wisely, or he would get mad at me and not listen to everything i had to say.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "well, i was sad when you broke up with them, because you would be very sad for a couple days, and it hurt me to look at you when you were like that. so i comforted you, and when you were happy again, i was happy. although i could tell you were broken." i take a deep breath. he still didn't say anything, and i was sorta glad. i had to get this all out, and if he interrupted me like he did before, i would never get to say all this. "now, you're single and you're going into university. i know it's even harder in uni to maintain a relationship, but i want to try. and if you say no, that's fine. i won't hold it against you. we can go back to what it was before this conversation, forget it ever happened. i just can't live with not knowing if you feel the same.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "and of course i could never force you to do anything. i just thought now was the time to tell you. before we part ways for perhaps a long time. so now's the time to do it. tell me you reject me, and we can move forward." i tell him, and he was speechless. we had stopped walking halfway through my little speech, and i turned to look at him for the first time since i started talking. his face was full of an emotion i had never seen on his face before. "come on, say something." i say quietly, but he just keeps quiet, looking anywhere but me.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "speak up! tell me you don't want to be with me!" i almost scream, but still, he stays quiet.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "say something! go on!" i scream desperately. and he walks forward, taking my shaking body into a tight hug. "tell me you don't want to be with me." i whisper, and he pulls back, looking into my eyes carefully.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "why would i ever say that?" he asks, and i frown. "why would i ever say that i don't want to be with you. you couldn't tell? i've been in love with you for forever. i just thought i never had a chance. so i tried to bury my feelings for you in other girls. i tried to love them, i really did. but i couldn't. because they weren't you." he explains, and i now had tears streaming down my face.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "why didn't you say something earlier?" i ask. "then this would never have happened."
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "you were always the popular one. friends with everyone, every single boy i know had a crush on you for one reason or another. i didn't think i deserved you, after what i did in junior high."
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "and i already told you, your past doesn't matter to me." i lean my head onto his chest, and he rests his on top of mine. i sniffle, sigh and he starts talking again.
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "if that's the case, how do you feel about becoming my girl friend, [Y/N]? right here, right now."
⠀⠀⠀⠀ "how do i feel? i feel like that's a hella stupid question to ask. i've gone through the trouble of confessing, and you still don't know if i want to go out with you? silly Yō-chan." i say, and he blushes. "of course i want to be your girl friend, Tweedle-dum!" i exclaim, and out of happiness he picks me up. he spins me around and around and i can only laugh and hold onto his shoulders. when he sets me down, he pulls me into a loving kiss.
⠀⠀⠀⠀you know the feeling you get when you first kiss the love of your life? well i had that feeling multiplied by, like, a hundred. there were fireworks going off in my stomach, but i loved it.
i wouldn't trade it for the world.
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well, that's this one shot done. i may turn this one into a whole book, so comment if you'd like that. i hope you enjoyed this chapter and i'll see you in the next one. (sorry about lack of updates. it'll probably continue like this for a while. sorry)
anyway,
goodbye!
