Desire 2

Chapter Forty-Seven

I arrived home the next day, having thrown all of my bags onto the floor before tossing on some old sweats and a hoodie and hopping into bed. We hadn't gone to sleep last night. Like at all. By the time we thought about it, it was already almost six in the morning and what was the point after that? 

I awoke at four in the afternoon to the sound of loud laughter coming from the living room. I stepped out of my room to see Matt standing over a large pile of wood. 

"You alright there?" I asked as Anna's laughter died down. 

"I dropped a block  of wood on my damn toe," 

A smile emerged on my face as he spoke, "I'm sorry," 

He sighed, "I never asked you how the trip was," 

An image of the guys appeared in my mind before quickly brushing it off, "It was fun. I had a really good time," 

"That's good! But hey! We're going out for pizza later if you wanna go!" Matt spoke. 

"I was actually gonna go back to campus and get some more stuff," 

"Oh! Well that's fine! We'll bring you something back," Anna replied. 

"Thanks! I'm gonna go get dressed," I smiled before stepping back into my room. 

**

I pulled into the campus parking lot which was extremely empty. I parked in a spot near the edge of the lot and put the car in park before stepping out. I grabbed my person from the passenger seat and began towards my dorm. 

I strode past the dorms and caught a glimpse of the booksore before stepping into the building. I was wearing a pair of white shorts with a purple tank top with some avaitors and my hair straightened. I walked into the coffee shop and ordered a coffee before glancing over and seeing Drew with a group of about six guys before we made eye contact. I turned back as quickly as possible, cringing at the moment we just had before he stood and began towards me. 

I felt him standing behind me as I turned to face him, moving my sunglasses onto the top of my head. 

"Hi," I began, smiling awkwardly. 

"Hey! You look really tan!" He replied, 

"Yeah! I just got back from a cruise! It was Anna and Matt's birthday present to me," 

"Oh! That's awesome," he spoke. 

"Yeah," I sighed as the barista spoke my name. 

I grabbed the coffee and turned back to him, "Well," 

"Can we talk?" 

"Yeah. Sure. I mean I," I began, before he spoke again. 

"Like in private?" 

"That's," I started, "That's fine," 

"Okay, um I'm gonna go get my stuff and then we'll go somewhere," 

"Okay," I stated, confused and suddenly very thristy. 

** 

We somehow ended up at Drew's frat house and made our way up the stairs to his room. He tossed his books on the bed as he sat down and patted the bed beside him for me to join. I sat beside him and looked up at him, his eyes meeting mine. 

"You're so beautiful," he stated, moving his hand up my thigh. 

"Drew, stop. I don't want to do this," 

"I miss you and I want you. I want you so bad," he almost demanded, pushing his lips onto mine. 

I felt his lips, soft at first and becoming rougher as time progressed. My hands found their way to his face and pulled him against me as I felt his hands traveled up my thighs. His lips moved onto my neck as I held his head against my body. 

"Drew," I began, "We can't," 

"Just stop fighting it. We're good together, Cam. We always have been," 

"What about Isla?" I shot, pulling away from him and holding his face in front of mine. 

"She was just a rebound. I thought she meant something more to me. I thought that I could just go back to before but it didn't feel right with her. It doesn't feel like it does with you baby," 

"What bout every thing you said? About wanting to be with her and how I should move on?" I asked. 

"I saw that I hurt you and I felt like I was doing what was best for you by making you hate me. I'm sorry," he stated. 

"But what about-" 

"Oh my gosh. Cam stop talking," he demanded, pushing my shoulders down onto the bed and climbing on top of me. 

I wrapped my legs around his back before he pushed his body, faster onto mine. I felt his lips travel down onto my chest and back up to my lips. He reached for my waist before tugging at the button of my jeans and unbuttoned it. I felt his hands pull the shorts from my waist as my phone began to vibrate in my back pocket. Drew moved his lips back up to my neck, moving his body against mine as I reached for the phone to throw it onto the ground. I gripped it in my hand and saw Austin's name across the top. I felt Drew lean up and take the phone from my hand, before tossing it on the ground. He pulled his shirt off and fell back on top of my body before his lips met my ear. 

"Let me make you forget all about him," 

My head fell back as his lips pushed against my neck and his hands pulled the shirt off my body. 

"Oh my God. I want you so bad," He stated. 

I pulled his body closer onto mine before he sat up and pulled my hands onto the button of his shorts. 

"Do whatever you want," he stated, standing from the bed as I did before he pushed me to sit in front of his waist. 

"Yeah," I stated, breathless, "I can't do this," 

"What do you mean?" he asked, suddenly sounding angry. 

"I'm not gonna have sex with you right now. I'm trying to be strong for me and I'm trying to be better. I can't do that with you trying to get in my pants everytime you see me," 

"Well," he spoke, "there's the door then," 

"Are you serious?" I laughed. 

"Yeah. I love you but I want to be with you. I've waited around for girls before and I'm not gonna do that again. Not even for someone as perfect as you. Figure out what you want Cam. Figure it out! Do you want Austin? Do you want me? Do you want to be alone? What do you want?" 

"It's not that simple! It's more difficult than that!" I yelled. 

"No! It's really not! I understand that he's your first love but you know what? Fuck your first love. Give a huge round of applause for your second love. Because even after your heart was broken into a million pieces, they showed you what it was like to be loved again," he spoke, "Just don't forget who was there for you when you were broken. Just don't forget all about us,"