Desire 2

Chapter Fifty-Nine

"Liv, you have to stay away from him," I laughed as she wiped down the counter with a dish towel.

Todd and I were on dish duty with him washing and me drying.

"Why? He's so sweet and so kind and he's beautiful," she spoke, her eyes full of lust.

"I can name several reasons why you shouldn't go near him," Todd spoke, passing me a plate.

"Oh really?" She narrowed her eyes.

Todd and I exchanged a look before placing our dishes down and sitting her down at the table, directly across from the two of us.

"1. He's married," Todd began

"2. He has a song who's like two years younger than you," I continued.

"3. He is like a thousand years older than you," Todd added.

"4. He's a professor at our college and although it's not technically illegal, he would lose his job and your reputation would be ruined at this school,"

"5. You'd be a homewrecker and you don't want to be a homewrecker," Todd pushed.

"6. There are plenty of hot guys who would love to go out with you. You know, ones that are your age,"

"Okay, okay. I get it. No Rosswell for Liv," she laughed as Todd and I breathed a sigh of relief.

"I still think he's the most handsome man I've ever seen," she added.

"He looks like Robert Downey Jr." Todd continued.

"Oh my gosh," I let out as my mouth fell open.

"Okay let's clean this house before those babies wake up," Liv suggested, moving back to the counter as Todd and I did the same.

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It was 6pm and Matt and Anna hadn't made a single noise since I let them on break. Part of me wanted to check on them, to make sure they're okay but the other part of me was too lazy to get up from the couch.

After three loads of laundry, four sink fills of dirty dishes, preparation of four frozen dinners for them to heat up during the week, a complete cleaning of the bathroom, two baby baths and several diaper changed followed by a complete cleaning of the new nursery, that was created from a home gym, I was completely beat.

I don't know how they do it. How do people do this all the time? I've been here five and a half hours and I already couldn't wait to leave. I mean don't get me wrong, I loved Matty and Morgan like no one would believe but man they were a lot of work.

We sat around on the couches, Todd in the middle and Liv and I on both sides of him each holding a baby.

"I'm never having kids," Liv blurted as Matt came out of the room, looking like a whole new person.

Anna followed quickly behind, wearing a pair of sweats and an old t-shirt. She still looked extremely tired but she looked refreshed, like some light was brought back to her.

"Oh my God! Look at this place!" Matt yelled, a smile speaking from cheek to cheek.

"Whatever you do, don't look in the fridge. You probably pee yourself," Liv spoke as Matt ran into the kitchen, shouting and laughing at the same time.

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* I listened to Wonderwall by Oasis while writing this part and I really feel like it fits perfectly with everything that's going on, so if you want, you could listen to that while you read! Enjoy(: **

We couldn't get out of their fast enough. We were exhausted and we wanted nothing more than to take a long hot shower and fall into a sleep like death.

Liv and I arrived back at our dormitory, walking past several people with their noses shoved deep into their books, reminding us of all the studying we had to do.

This was our last week of school after we finished all our finals and I personally couldn't be happier that this year is almost over.

I decided on simply wearing one of the dresses that I already had, given that I didn't get to go today.

After an hour and a half we were done with showers and about to collapse into bed as they're was a knock at the door, to which both of us let out one loud "ugh"

I stood up, wearing an old t shirt and some yoga pants with my hair thrown up into a bun.

"Who is it?" I sighed in annoyance, opening the door.

Austin stood before me, soaking wet from head to toe. My expression turned blank as I was suddenly unable to speak.

"I've been waiting in my car for over two hours, thinking about what I was going to say to you when I saw you," he began.

"What do you want?" I replied, emotion absent from my voice.

"I want you. I've always wanted you. It's always been you and I don't see why you can't see that. Cam, we're good together and we belong together. You belong with me, not Drew and these aren't the type of friends you want! They're influencing you and you're changing and you can't even see it!" he paused, noticing my eyes becoming glossy, "please don't cry. I just want to help you and get you back to who you are,"

"This is who I am. This is who I've always been and it's not any of your business," I spoke, a tear rolling down my cheek as he wiped it with his finger.

"Don't touch me," I demanded, pulling away from his touch before I turned and grabbed the door knob to re-enter the room.

"Please just give a few minutes, Cam. Please? I know that you're hurt and that you're upset with us but that's no reason to change who you are. You're beautiful and smart and caring and not this person. I know you're hurt but it's not too late. We can still fix this. We can fix us," He finished as I let out a small laugh.

"You think that's the problem? That we should 'fix us'? Austin," I began as he continued looking hopeful at me, "if I wanted to fix us, I would have. The problem isn't our status or non-existent relationship. It's you and everyone else constantly wanting to control me. I am nineteen years old and I'm more than capable of talking care of myself. I don't need you or anyone else to do it,"

"Oh really? Then why do you feel it so necessary to be with Drew? Why not just be alone?" He began to shout.

"First of all, people are studying for finals because those are a big deal around here. You wouldn't know since you apparently think you're too good to go to college, but shut up and let them study. Second, that's none of your business and I don't have to tell you anything about anything anymore,"

"Cam, do you honestly not see that Drew is just with you because he wants in your pants? That's all he wants from you! You can tell by the way he looks at you!" He pushed as I let out a loud chuckle.

"Well I mean, he's been in them for a while now and he's still here so," I laughed up at him, his expression Turing grim.

"What is it, Austin?" I smirked at him, "did you really think you were the not guy I've ever been with?"

"Don't be like that. Just come back with me. We can work this through. I'll

do whatever you need me to do. I promise, just come back, Cam,"

"What the hell, Austin?!" I yelled, startling him, "do I have to spell it out for you? I don't want to be with you because all it does is get me hurt in the end and I'm not going to do it. I don't want you,"

He bit his lip as I saw the tears appearing in the corners of his eyes, tightening my chest in an instant.

"Well, I don't want you either," he began as I caught his gaze, "I want Cam. So give me a call when she gets back and the bitch that's currently inhabiting her leaves,"

He walked down the hall, his hands reaching up to his head and looking down at the ground as he continued.

Before I knew what was happening, I was sitting on the floor, uncontrollable tears escaping my eyes. Why did I feel this awful? Why did I feel like my heart had just been ripped out of my chest? Why did I feel this way?