Desire 2

Chapter Sixty-Three

As I trudged my way back to campus, I couldn't believe what I had just done. I had let my emotions get the worst possible out of me and it happened with the worst possible person. Why had I called Zach to come and get me? I could've just as easily called Todd or Liv or basically anyone else on the planet but it had to have been Zach. I hated myself. I hated myself for making stupid decisions and for constantly setting myself up to be hurt by stupid guys. And it wasn't like I could lie to them about it after I made such a huge deal to Drew and Austin about lying. I didn't know what I was going to do. All I knew was that I had nothing left to do at this school and as far as I was concerned, it was summer. And I wanted to run. I wanted to run away from every single one of my problems. And I wanted to do it fast, before I had a chance to change my mind.

I ended up at my dorm about ten minutes later to find Liv and Todd scattered on her bed as I strode in, tossing my purse on my bed as they stood to meet me.

"Hey," Liv smiled, trying to ease the mood, "what's wrong? What happened?"

"I did something really bad," I cried as the two of them wrapped me in their arms.

"What did you do?" Todd asked, sitting me down on Liv's bed.

"Well at that party tonight, it was basically thrown in my face that I cheated on Zach with Austin and then Austin's friend, Alex, exposed to everyone that Drew was accused of rape in his senior year of high school,"

"Oh my God," Liv spoke, reaching a hand to her mouth.

"Oh and on top of that, Austin was hooking up with some girl when he was in Paris, you know? Apparently that was Colby," I paused as their faces stayed in pure shock, "and Austin threatened her to keep her quiet so she wouldn't tell me. Then I yelled at the two of them and left the party,"

"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry, Cam," Liv began, resting her head on my shoulder.

"Wait, what did you do though?" Todd asked, my eyes glancing up to his.

"I had Zach come pick me up afterwards and we went back to his apartment and we talked,"

"Is that all you did?" Liv asked slowly.

"No," I sobbed into my hands.

"Oh shit," they both spoke in sync.

"I know! I feel so awful like who breaks up with their boyfriend and then goes and sleeps with their ex. I'm so disgusting,"

"No, you're not! You're confused and you need to take some time for just you and that's it. And us of course," he laughed.

"That is what I need. It's exactly what I need," I spoke, "which is why I have an idea and I want you guys to help me with it,"

"What do you mean?" Todd questioned.

"A while ago when Anna was having the twins, Matt bribed me to be in the delivery room with One Direction tickets and a trip,"

"Wait, Matt bribed you to be in the delivery room with him and his girlfriend," Liv laughed.

"Okay. I know it sounds bad but she was evil. Anyways, I wasn't going to take the trip because I didn't feel it was necessary but I don't want to be here. I want to go somewhere new and be free from all this drama," I finished.

"Cam, running away from your problems isn't going to solve them. It's only gonna make it worse," Liv replied.

"It's not like that! I just want time for me and I want to figure this out and I don't know how to do that here. I don't know how to be independent and move on from how fucked up this year had been while I'm here. I just need to go," I lied, "I just want to move on from this. I understand if you guys don't want to go-"

"Who the hell said we don't want to go?" Liv laughed, looking to Todd.

"Forreal. You think I'm gonna pass up a trip to Australia. Are you insane?" He paused, "we just wanted to make sure that you were sure about this,"

"I am. I mean, I'm coming back obviously but like I just want a break," I finished as the three of us, glanced at each other.

"Then I guess the Troublesome Three is gonna tear up Australia," Liv giggled.

"I mean I'm ready to get down under," Todd winked.

"Lets go to Australia," I stated, smiling back and forth at the two of them.

This was what I needed. Or at least what I needed right now. And I was going to get what I needed. I was going to get everything I needed.