Wonders of Being Me (Luke Hemmings)

Chapter Ten: Almost All Is Forgotten

The weekends fly by when you're not paying attention. Considering Taylor and I have only been in school for two days, the weekend just felt like summer with the two day school period. Sounds weird enough as it is but I know we won't feel that way for long.

Monday arrives too soon for me, after Luke being at my house Saturday, I wasn't ready to face him. He wasn't really happy when I told him to leave. We didn't get any work done for our project but I had a feeling he would come around and ask to research again.

Luke was confusing me and I didn't like it, when he was "helping" me with the peanut butter, I decided that it was probably best to just let Luke know that I wasn't in the mood for his mood swings. I was the girl here and he needed to explain to me why he kissed me and what the fuck was going on in his brain to be super nice and then as fucking mean as the assholes come.

*FLASHBACK*

"Luke, please leave." I say in my best attempt. I knew that I couldn't trust my judgment if he was too close to me. When he wasn't near me, I could think properly but when he was near me, all I could think about was our kiss.

"We both know you don't want that." He says and dips his head down to the back of my neck, leaving small kisses all the way up my jawline. I tried so hard to think about how this was going to make me feel later but right at this moment, I couldn't stop thinking about the way it felt as the kisses became slower and more seductive.

"That doesn't matter. You can't keep doing this." I manage to say and try to move so I could face him. He lets me turn around but he doesn't bother to move back.

"Doing what?"

He's got to be kidding.

"Luke, you can't do this. Look," I sigh, "you have the potential to be nice when we are alone but what in seven hells makes you think I want you to kiss me when you're fucking rude to me in front of everyone else?"

He doesn't say anything. I stare at him, waiting for some type of response, any kind of response. He takes a deep breath before bringing a hand up to his hair, slowing running it through.

"Hazel, why can't you let this happen? Why are you pushing me away?" He sighs this time, obviously frustrated with me. I let out a laugh, why was he being impatient with me when he was the one confusing the shit out of me.

"I don't think you understand how this looks." I say to Luke who still stands way too close for comfort.

"Luke, you were mean to me the moment I meant you, you're still rude to me. I don't know what I did." I say and he finally takes a step back and shakes his head.

"Whatever Hazel." He says and walks to the living room, towards the front door.

"What?" I shout to him, "You want me to let you kiss me after all the mean shit you said to me? Luke, really? That's like trying to kiss an alligator after it ate half of your body! I don't think you understand how this looks! You were mean to me, you kissed me, you were mean to me, you kissed me, is this going to be the cycle because I don't fucking like it."

I finish my rampage and he stands in the middle of the living room, with his back facing me. I feel a pinch of guilt for shouting at him. Maybe he wanted to be nice but something was blocking his way of it, it's still pretty fucked up I think.

"Just shut-up!" He shouts and turns around to face me. "You don't know me Hazel! You don't know anything about me! So why don't you shut that trap of yours!"

I am officially pissed. What the fuck.. I can't even put into words what I am feeling right now. I thought we were making progress and is it weird of me to actually hope that Luke and I could get along? The thought it self seemed like a pretty psychotic idea.

"See Luke! You want me to let you kiss me after you're fucking rude to me?!" I shout back taking a few steps closer to him as I do.

"Hazel-"

"No Luke, just leave until you can figure what the fuck is going on in that messed up mind of yours because I'm done." I shout to him, not even letting him finish what he had to say. I storm up to my room and slam the door only to hear moments later the front door slam too.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

I put my materials in my locker and grab what I needed for Music History. I have been trying so hard not to think about Luke but my curiosity was getting the better of me. I wonder what is going on with him. Maybe he was just confused by his feelings you know? Maybe he's never really known what to do in a situation like this. I mean, if he was in multiple situations like ours then I don't even want to know what was truly wrong with him.

I walk down the hall towards Ashton's locker, waiting for him. He finally shows up and rushes over to me, I smiled at him before he threw open his locker to get all his stuff he needed for class. I didn't understand why he was going so fast, class didn't start for 15 minutes.

"Hey Hazel." He says and looks down at his phone. He gives a big sigh of relief noticing that he didn't have to rush.

"Hey Ashton." I smile to him and he closes the locker and brings me in for a hug.

"Did you think you were late or something?" Iask him about his hurried process.

"Yea, apparently I don't know how to read a clock." He chuckles and lets go of me.

I smile at his stupidity, he's so adorable. I think he was the only guy I knew that could get away with giggling and let me say, it was fucking adorable.

"You're funny Irwin." I say as we walk down the hall to music history.

"So, my friends really liked you." He says to me as we open the doors to Music History.

"Really?" I ask in disbelief. Don't get me wrong, they were amazing people I just didn't think they would like me.

"Yea, especially Cristina and Perrie, they're big fans of Ms. Hazel London." He giggles as we take our regular seats.

"I really like them too, Niall and I won't be on good terms because of what he wanted Luke and I to do." I say ans chuckle to myself. Ashton looks at bit sad at my mention of the closet game but it's quickly wiped away with a smile.

"If you don't mind me asking, what happened in the closet with you and Luke?"

I sigh, not really sure if I should tell Ashton or not, he'd think I was crazy if he knew what happened after I threw a fit over it in the first place. Ashton was my friend, he was the closest thing I had to one in this school. What could happen if I told him this?

"Well, Luke kissed me." I say quietly and I hear Ashton's breath hitch.

"You what?" He says and I sigh again.

"I didn't do anything Ashton, Luke kissed me!" I say and chuckle at his response.

"Wow. After the fit you threw you actually let him kiss you?" He says in a pissed off manner.

"What the hell Ashton? Why are you so mad about this?" I say back, obviously he's not in his right mind. He had no reason to be mad at me for something I didn't particularly do.

"I'm not, I'm just," He pauses and smiles at me, "surprised."

I smile back, glad to know that my friend wasn't mad at me. "Me too." I say.

"Do you want to hang out today? Like watch a movie or something?" Ashton asks and momentarily I think he's asking me out on a date. "As friends?" He adds on and relief fills me. It's not that I don't like Ashton, it's more of I wasn't ready to date quite yet. I really just wanted a friend right now.

"Yea, I'd love to." I smile to him and he returns it, letting the dimples fill his cheeks.

"Great." He says all bubbly and before we knew it, the bell rang.

Michael walks in the class late but still present but Luke never shows up. I couldn't help but wonder where he'd gone.

(There you go! I finally updated! I hope you don't hate me for the late update chick! I'm sorry it's not any good, but it has a major part to the rest of my story! Please read and vote! I appreciate it! :))