I'm going to be blunt, I am angry.
Angry at myself, angry at others, angry at the world.
Why myself: I don't fucking learn.
I said it in my last chapter and I'll say it again, don't tell someone you want to spend the rest of your life with them. I'm 16 for God's sake, what the hell did I think was going to happen? That we were going to work it out, our future, and live happily ever after?? No, I don't fucking think so. Instead I get a comment that basically read like I was a burden to him and now I'm broken hearted and angry.
Why at others: They don't know when to shut up.
If I refuse to answer you, tell you repeatedly to shut up, turn my music up louder and be really obvious about it, I don't want to talk to you. Don't then keep trying to talk to me. I don't care about your favourite song from 2017 or whatever the fuck you were talking about, leave me alone.
To the girl who broke my best friends heart by dating her for a year, broke with her and then 3 days later started dating someone else, you're a cunt. How dare you shove the relationship in her face and then not care when I tell you it hurts her. Who the fuck do you think you are?
To the boy who I love who basically told me I'm a burden: thank you for breaking my heart, the one thing you said you wouldn't do because you want me to be happy. Ibwould have been happier if you had just told me you needed less time with me. I would have respected that and left you be. Thanks for making me cry myself to sleep because I understand when I'm not actually loved.
To the boy who made me feel loved for months, disappeared on me and has now wandered back: fuck you okay. Just fuck you. What did ok mean the other day by "what is this" and then when I finally got round to asking you, you said to not worry about it? Tell me, I can then answer you. Are you now saying you like me? What happened to "little sister"?
Why at the world: this world is a mess. We are killing out planet, killing each other and we don't care. No one cares.
I don't want to be on this world anymore.
I give up.
