What do I do?
Do I just leave you? Do I accept that you don't love me the way you did and that it was my fault and that it'll never be the same? Do I drink myself out of my own head and kiss people I should to distract myself from you, the same way I've tried to for two years?
Or do I fight for you? Do I wait for you to cool down and then try to regain what we had? Do I explain everything and tell you why I did what I did? Do I follow my heart?
Or is my heart again drunk on the thought of you?
I know you don't love me. Not the way you did. Not the way you did, when I then listened to other people and let them make the decision for me to forget you.
Not the way you did when I threw it away.
I'm going to leave you for a few days. let you do what you need to do. If I do something regrettable in that time, then well...
I may as well hang my rope now lol, if I do that to you
