You know what, fuck the first.
I don't need someone toxic like that in my life. I wont have it. I have someone who loves me and this time I know it's true. Forget about the first, you don't need him.
And while deep down, certain songs break your heart, and seeing a motorbike makes you hopeful. But you can fight it. Make the songs your own, no one elses. Bring the bikes back to your dreams, no one elses. Fight it. You will win eventually.