Aight listen.
I've just set myself the record of the shortest time I have dated someone for and it's like 21 hours, so we will not be including it when we ask how long we've been single for.
MarvelandMore and I agreed we are better as friends because we don't want to lose the incredibly close friendship we have with each other.
Plus I'm not over him AT ALL.
Like. I might be seeing him in a few days and we all know how well that will go. As long I don't completely cock up and lose again, I should be fine.
Note the should. because its such a bad idea seeing someone you are meant to be getting over them when you know full well that you are gonna make out A LOT. I know that I'm just gonna hurt myself. I know that.
But I truly think that this boy is worth it. He means the world to me.
Now I think I should explain as I never really did. not properly anyway.
This boy and I never dated. We have not dated and we are not dating. I pray to god we do date in the future because that's probably one of the only things I know I want. Now before you go "Friends With Benefits" actually you are like half right. That's how it started. Kind of. we knew we both actually had feelings for each other, but we didn't want it to go further.
(Lmao THAT WORKED DIDNT IT)
nope, we fell for each other completely. And while it felt like we were dating, we weren't. and it sucked.
And now we "aren't dating" at all.
But we talk every day.
And we send kisses when we say goodnight to each other.
And I talk about him a lot. And I mean a lot (to my friends I AM SO SORRY)
While I wish we were together, we aren't because he leaves soon. I just hope that our summer goes super slowly so it feels like we spend forever together.
But I know that won't happen.
