Your Place Or Mine? BOOK VERSION (PUBLISHED BY VIVA PSICOM)

Chapter 42: Conflicts

HALEY'S POV

Hanggang ngayon palaisipan pa rin sa akin ang sinabi ni Seth. Have we met before? Bahagi ba siya ng nakaraan ko? Bakit hindi ko siya maalala? Nagka amnesia ba ako? I'm sure hindi. But I'm too young to have a memory gap.

Ayoko nang magi sip. Seth must be imagining things. At first, I thought he has a crush on me. Pero parang mas lumala yata ang hinala ko. That he might be a drug user.

Well, ang tindi ng hallucination niya, abot hanggang past life. Pinapalabas niya na nagkita na kami dati. At ako pa ang palalabasin niya na may amnesia para mapag takpan ang bisyo niya. Haay, pero sana naman wag magkatotoo ang hinala ko na addict siya.

Pero, paano kung totoong may amnesia ako? Hindi kaya ex ko siya? Pero si Vince and first boyfriend ko. At nung high school wala naman akong naging boyfriend, hindi kaya uso yun sa akin noon. Puro, MU lang.

Ayoko na talagang mag isip. Nakakaloka siya. Gusto ko sana siyang kausapin. But I can't get hold of him. Ilang araw na siyang wala. Maybe I'll just wait 'till school break when the outreach program schedule starts.

Nagdalawang isip ako kung dederecho na agad ako sa condo o bibili muna ng food. My stomach rumbles just by looking at the chain of fastfood across the street. I was kinda busy at school, at nakalimutan kong mag snacks man lang.

Sa tagal kong magdecide, I found myself at the parking of the condo. I decided to call for delivery service. I checked my phone bago ako bumaba ng kotse. No texts or missed calls from Russell. Nasa unit na kaya siya? I don't think so. It's still early and these past few days he came home late.

Nagiging habit na niya ang pag uwi ng late. Hindi na kami nagkaka usap lately. Pag magkausap kami, hindi ko na siya papalampasin pa. Sumusobra na siya.

And I was surprised to him, inside the unit, sitting and it seems that he's waiting for me. Himala. Babatiin ko sana ito, but the look in his eyes chilled me. His face was grim as he held my gaze.

"What's this?"

He's holding the box of my pills. But, where did he get it? I must have left it somewhere this morning. At ito na ang kinakatakutan ko.

"It's for..."

He cut me curtly. "I know what it is for! Why do you have this?!"

I've enevr seen him like this before. Talking to me in gritted teeth. Parang pigil na pigil siya na sigawan ako.

"Russell please, let me explain..." I was too shaken but I can't let him see it.

"Why? Give me one good reason why you're taking this, aside from ayaw mong mabuntis?"

I can see the muscle of his jaw twitched. How he probably wanted to slap me with the box he's holding. I wanted to tell him everything. Pero natatakot ako sa kanya. I wanted to tell him that I'm taking contraceptive pills. And that regulates my monthly cycle.

I know. It's my fault. I should have told him about it form the very start.

"Why? Am I asking too much from you, huh?" he growled.

What does he mean? Is he expecting that I could've been pregnant if I wasn't using that pill?

"You dont understand." I said helpslessly.

"What do you expect me to understand? Malinaw naman na ayaw mo."

Na ayaw kong magbuntis? Gusto kong umiyak. That's what I thought. It might give him the wrong impression. I kept it form him because I didn't want him to know that I am not yet capable of getting pregnant. Para sa isang babae, ito na siguro ang napakahirap sabihin.