Behind The Scenes Of Choni: A Madnessa Story [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 6

     [VANESSA'S POV]
   It has been three weeks since I have talked to Madelaine. I mean I talked to her when we were shooting but that was me talking to Cheryl not Madelaine.

   I miss her. I really do. I'm giving her space because I know that she needs it right now. I know that she is still staying with Camila, so I feel a little better knowing Camila will take care of her.

   We have a table read in a few hours. Madelaine doesn't sit by me anymore she stays with Camila. Travis hasn't been coming to any of the shoots either, so I'm guessing they haven't talked.

   I guess I should probably get ready instead of moping around but who wouldn't be moping about losing a best friend. It's definitely not the first time I've lost a best friend.

   I muster up all the strength I can and get out of bed. I should probably take a shower since I haven't in a few days. It's just a table read so I'm not going to do my makeup. I'll probably just put my hair in a beanie or whatever.

          [MADELAINE'S POV]
   I was in Camila's guest room which at this point might as well just be my room. Today I felt worse than I have in a while.

   My stomach hurts a lot. Probably because I haven't eaten in days. Camila notices how little I eat. She tries to get me to eat but I just can't.

   I'm really hungry but every time I see food I immediately feel nauseous. My throat closes, and my stomach turns.

   I really did not want to go to the table read. I knew Camila wouldn't let me skip so I should probably just get ready.

   Before I could even get up Camila came into the room. "Madelaine you have to get up for the table read." Camila said. Ugh I knew she would do this.

   "I know. I was just about to get up." I say while sitting up in bed. "Mads." She said slowly. I knew she was getting at something. "Yes?" I ask even though I knew I shouldn't.

   "How are you doing?" She asks while climbing into the bed. "I'm.....okay." I sigh. "Are you ever going to tell me what happened?" Camila asks. I fucking knew it. Keep yourself together. You can't breakdown right before a table read.

   "Why don't you just ask Travis? He sure knows how to open his mouth." I reply defensively. "Madelaine." Camila sighs. "No, I'm serious. Text him. Right now. Do it. I bet he will tell you everything." I say. Camila looks at me with her brows furrowed.

   Why am I telling her to text him? Why would I rather her hear it from him than me? Before I could change my mind she grabs her phone to text Travis.

   After minutes of me sitting and watching she finally looks up at me. "Told you." I say bluntly. "You're in love with her?" She asks shocked.

   "I never admitted to it. I just left. He hasn't seen me since. I went to Vanessa's and she asked him and he told her. After I found out she knew I left and came here." I say. I could feel myself getting teary eyed. I've never been strong. I always get emotional.

   "Why would you leave if she didn't have anything to find out?" Camila asks curiously. "Because....maybe I am..." I say quietly. "Maybe what?" She asks.

   I look at her as tears stream down my face, "In love with Vanessa..." I say almost inaudible. I break down into sobs.

   Camila looks at me with her mouth agape. She's sitting speechless. Just staring. Why is she staring?

   Of course she's going to stare you idiot. You just told her you're in love with a girl. She's disgusted by you. She's gonna kick you out. You aren't going to have anywhere to go. Everyone is going to hate you now. You just messed up everything for yourself. You're supposed to be in love with Travis; a boy.

   "Stop! Stop! Stop!" I yell out trying to get the voice to go away.

   Yelling will just make me stronger.

  "Just go away!" I continue to yell with my hands over my ears.

   "Madelaine!" Camila yells at me. I look at her frightened. She looks worried.

   She's not worried.

  "What's wrong?" She asks. "Just tell me when you want me to leave and I will." I say holding back tears.

   "Why would I want you to leave?" She asks confused. "Because I'm disgusting. I'm in love with a girl. You hate me now." I say as a single tear rolls down my face.

  "You are not disgusting. I could never hate you especially for something as stupid as loving a girl. You can love whoever you want." Camila says wiping away my tears.

   She's lying. Don't listen to her.

  "Stop lying to me." I choke out. "I'm not lying to you. I know you're in a rough place right now but I'm here for you. There is nothing wrong with you loving a girl. I promise. Love is love, no matter the gender. I'm very proud of you for telling me. I know it's hard for you but you won't regret it in the end." Camila says reassuringly. I nod my head.

  "I'm sorry to ruin the moment but we have a table read in less than two hours, and we need to get ready." Camila says giving me a small smile. "Fuck." I sigh while getting out of bed. "I'm going to take a shower." I say walking into the bathroom. Camila leaves the room most likely to do the same.

   I get into the shower and wash my hair and body. Once I get out of the shower I put my hair into a messy bun and put on a little bit of makeup.

   I put on a grey sweater and light blue pants. I don't feel like wearing heels today, and tennis shoes definitely would not go with this outfit. "Hey Cami!" I call. "Yeah?" She calls back. "Can I borrow your Uggs?" I ask. "Yeah." She says handing me her Uggs. "Thank you." I say appreciatively. "No problem." She shrugs.

   I slip them on and look in the mirror. Why don't I own a pair of these? Oh yeah, cause I can just borrow Cami's. I smile pleased with my outfit and wait for Camila.

   Once Camila is ready we leave for the table reading. As usual I stay with her avoiding Vanessa. Just as I'm about to sit down Camila stops me, "Go sit with Vanessa today." I look at her confused.

   "What?" I ask. "It's a process. Go sit with her. That's your first step." Camila whispers. I look at her dumbfounded until she turns me around and pushes my back lightly.

   I take a deep breath and make my way to Vanessa. I sit down next to her without saying a word. She looks me up, and down surprised. She turns to the table, and looks at her script as do I.

  A while into the reading there is a choni scene. "Toni?" I say confused and surprised. "We came to rescue you." Vanessa says relieved. "You did?" I ask.

   "After this Cheryl will run up to Toni and you both will hug then after the hug you will share a passionate kiss." Rob says looking at both me and Vanessa.

  "We what?" Vanessa chokes. "Kiss." Rob says bluntly. Vanessa looks at me and I keep my eyes on the script. 'share a passionate kiss' printed right there on the script.

   It was the only thing circling in my mind. It's getting hard to breathe. I feel like the room is getting smaller. Like it's closing in on me. I feel like everybody's eyes are on me.

   "I have to go." I say quickly while getting out of my chair. "Mads," Vanessa says grabbing my hand. I yank it away from her. "No," I mumble shaking my head. "Madelaine." Rob says. "I'm sorry." I apologize before leaving the room.

Sorry if this chapter was a little boring but I'm sick again and my mind isn't really focusing Im sorry. I just wanted to update for you guys since I left y'all hanging for like a week after chapter four. Hope you guys like the chapter though. Sorry if you don't, I'll try better next chapter.