Behind The Scenes Of Choni: A Madnessa Story [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 9

[MADELAINE'S POV]
   My surgery was over and I had just woken up. It's almost eight o'clock. I want to talk to Travis. Seeing Camila distressed made me realize that I need to get better. Not just for my friends but for myself. All of this definitely isn't good for my body.

  "Cami?" I ask my voice rough. "Yeah?" She asks softly. "I want to talk to Travis." I say nervously. "Are you sure?" She asks surprised. "Yes." I say trying to sound confident. "Okay. I will call him." Camila says getting out her phone. She dials his number and waits for him to answer.

   "Hey Travis." She says sweetly. "What are you doing?" Camila asks nervously. "Well...could you come to the hospital? Madelaine wants to talk to you." She asks. She puts away her phone. "He's on his way." She says quietly. "Thank you." I croak out. "Of course." She says grabbing my hand.

   "Are you sure about this?" She asks concerned. "I think so." I sigh, truth is I'm not sure at all. "I want to get better. Its a process. This is my second step." I chuckle. She lets out a light laugh, "I'm proud of you." Camila says. "Thank you." I respond. I look to Casey and he gives me a smile. I respond with a nervous smile.

   I hear the door creak as it opens slowly. "Mads." I hear. Travis walks into the room with a small smile. Camila nods and gets up as does Casey. They both leave the room and Travis sits on a chair next to my bed. "Hey." I say. "What did you want to talk about?" He asks worried.

  "I think we should break up." I say honestly. "Why?" He asks. He's not sad; just curious. "I can't love you. Not the way you deserve to be loved. I'm sorry I can't give that to you." I apologize. "Who are you giving your love to?" Travis asks. "You already know." I laugh. He laughs with me. "But. I need a favor." I say quickly. He looks at me with a serious expression. "Okay. Anything you need." He reassures.

   "I need you to be my boyfriend to the public but around our friends and family we are just friend. Can you do that for me?" I ask nervously. "Yeah of course." He says nicely. "I'm sorry." I apologize again. "You don't need to be sorry Madelaine. You can't choose who you love. It just happens. I'm happy that you found that someone." Travis says holding my hand. "If you're happy, so am I." He reassures. "Thank you." I say nicely. "Of course." He says softly.

   "I think I'm going to talk to Vanessa in a bit." I say. Travis looks at me and gives me a huge smile. "Good luck. I believe in you." He says standing up. "Thanks." I reply. He kisses the top of my head before leaving the room.

   Camila and Casey come in shortly after. "Anything else my queen?" Casey says bowing to me. "Oh my god." I laugh in amusement. "But yes. I have someone else I need to speak to." Casey looks at me with a brow raised. "I want to talk to Nessa." I say quietly. "Wait really?" Camila asks. I nod my head. "Are you sure you're ready for that?" She asks me worriedly. "I need to tell her something. She deserves to know." I say confidently.

   Camila nods, getting her phone from her back pocket. "Can you put her on speaker?" I ask nervously. Camila nods her head and puts the call on speaker. "Cami?" Vanessa croaks. Gosh I missed her voice. She's sad. I can tell. She's trying to sound okay but I know she's not. "Hey, Vanessa. Can you come to the hospital?" Camila asks. "Why?" Vanessa asks confused. "Madelaine wants to talk to you." Camila says. "Wait really?" Vanessa asks excitedly. "Yeah." Camila laughs. "Oh my gosh. Yeah! I'll be right there!" Vanessa says quickly. Camila hangs up the phone.

  I sigh a wave of relief washing over me. She was happy. She really wants to talk to me. I hope she misses me as much as I miss her."You okay Mads?" Camila asks. "I miss her so much." I admit. I feel a single tear roll down my cheek. Camila gives me a sad smile. "Hey, it's okay. If what you're telling her is good news you will have her back in no time." She says with a small smile. I laugh. "Yeah. I hope so."

   The door opens quickly and Vanessa is standing in the doorway with tears running down her face. "What the fuck? Did you speed all the way here?!" Casey asks surprised. "That doesn't matter." She mutters. She runs up to me and gives me a hug. Casey and Camila leave the room quickly. I hear the door close slowly.

   "I missed you so much." She sobs. "I missed you too." I giggle. She pulls away, sitting in the chair next to me. "I want to tell you what happened. When I was younger." I say quietly. She grabs my hand. "Okay. I'm here to listen." I smile at the sight of our hands. "When I was younger I fell in love with someone. Except that someone was a girl. She was one of my best friends. I decided to tell my mother about it. She had told me I was disgusting and that loving a girl was unnatural." I say. I close my eyes tightly hating the thought.

   "She said she wouldn't love me back because I was a girl. I told myself that my mother was wrong. I decided to tell the girl how I felt." Tears were now running down my face rapidly. "I had told her. E-Excep-pt my mother was right. She didn't love me. She said she only liked b-boys and that being with a girl was gr-oss. She said she didn't want to be my friend anymore. So she left. She never spoke to me again." I say.

   I sniffle as I try to gain a bit of my composure back. "I had my heart broken. I told my mother, and she laughed in my face. She told me how much of an idiot I was to even think that a girl loving a girl was possible. So I told myself I would only love boys. But..." I stop. I look to Vanessa seeing her wet cheeks. "But what?" She asks quietly.

   "Then I met you." I say just above a whisper. She looks at me with wide eyes. "I love you Vanessa. I am absolutely in love with you. I don't want to keep tearing myself apart. I want to be honest with myself. I, Madelaine Petsch, am in love with you, Vanessa Mziray." I finish. "I am in love with you too Madelaine." Vanessa says.

  She leans in slowly placing her lips onto mine. I grab the back of her neck pulling her closer. I can't explain the amount of happiness I feel. I smile into the kiss. When we were both in need of air she pulls back slowly.

   "What about Travis?" She asks. "I broke up with him. But he's my boyfriend to the public until I'm ready to come out to the whole world. It's a process that I hope you're okay with." I say nervously. "Of course. You can take your time. As long as you're all mine away from the public." Vanessa says grabbing my hand. "Of course." I say pecking her lips lightly.

   "Wait. What about Beau?" I ask. "We broke up a long time ago." Vanessa says rolling her eyes. "Why?" I ask confused. "Well one I'm in love with you. Not him. Also apparently he found this blonde bimbo to screw." Vanessa laughs. "Good. Because you are all mine." I say pulling her into the bed. "And you are all mine." She says cuddling into me. I kiss the top of her head. "I love you. A lot." I say. "I love you a lot too." Vanessa replies.

   I hear a knock at the door. "Come in!" Vanessa yells. Camila and Casey come in. "Ooh what do we have here?" Casey teases. "What? Can I not cuddle with my hot girlfriend?" Vanessa asks with a smirk. "Girlfriend?!" Casey and Camila ask in shock. "Yep." I say. Vanessa looks up at me with a smile and I give her a kiss. She kisses back happily.

   I pull back with a smile. "I could get used to this." I sigh in relief. "Me too." Vanessa smiles. "MY SHIP!" Casey yells while taking his phone out of his pocket. "Hey! It's my ship!" Camila argues. "Oh no." Vanessa groans. I laugh at my friends, and my beautiful girlfriend. Yeah, my girlfriend.

Honestly call me a loser but I was listening to my sad playlist while writing this and I was getting a little teary eyed lol. Sorry if it's not that great but I just stayed up all night and I think I might go to sleep. So this is my last update for today sorry!