Behind The Scenes Of Choni: A Madnessa Story [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 15

[VANESSA'S POV]
It was many hours later and Camila was on her way to leave. "If you want you can stay in the guest room?" I suggest kindly. Camila looks at Madelaine before seeing her nod with a smile. "I would love that." Camila says excitedly. "Can we go over the script?" Madelaine asks walking to cuddle into my side. "I really need to read it. I haven't read it since the table read." She explains. "Of course, babe. Would you like to read it with us, Cami?" I ask draping my arm around Madelaine's shoulder. "Yeah. Honestly I haven't read it either." She laughs. We sit at the island in the kitchen and read over the script. "Babe?" I ask. "Yeah." Madelaine perks. "Are you going to be okay, shooting the kissing scene?" I ask nervously. "Well, I mean I've kissed you before." Madelaine says nonchalantly. "Are you okay with doing it in front of the whole cast and crew?" I ask. Madelaine's expression drops quickly once she hits realization. "In front of the whole cast and crew." She whispers to herself. Her breathing starts picking up quickly. She starts panicking and crying. "Mads." I say walking around the island quickly. "N-N-Nessa." She whines breathlessly. "Shhh, it's going to be okay." I say trying to calm her. She shakes her head quickly as tears stream down her cheeks. "Mads, you need to calm down." I say softly. Her composure doesn't change, so I rest her hand over my chest. "Pay attention to my breathing, okay? I need you to breathe with me." I say softly. She nods her head and whimpers. I inhale and exhale hoping she will do the same. She starts to breathe slower while also gasping from the difficulty. "You're going to be okay. Just stay calm for me." I whisper. I continue to breathe with her until her breathing becomes steady enough. I wipe her tears away with my thumbs. She cries into my hands. Instead of saying anything I pull her into my arms and let her cry. I sit patiently. Her cries become quieter, and I hear her sniffle as she pulls away from my grip. "I'm sorry." She says wiping her tears. "You don't need to be sorry. It's okay. You're just scared right now." I say tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear. "I'm terrified." Madelaine says shakily. I hear footsteps so I figure it's Camila going to the guest room to give us some privacy. "It's okay. I won't let anything happen to you." I reassure. She nods her head slowly as more tears form in her eyes. "I know it's hard but for all they know it's just acting. You don't have to come out to them yet. If you want we can invite Travis to the set so people don't grow suspicious. Is that okay?" I suggest. "Scared." Madelaine mumbles. "Why are you scared?" I ask confused. "What if he hurts me?" She asks barely audible. "He won't hurt you. I won't let him either. He's still your best friend, Mads. He still cares about you." I say sadly. It was so sad that she thought everyone would hurt her. Especially the people that cared for her the most. "Mad?" She asks with doe eyes. "Who's mad?" I ask. "Travis." Madelaine answers. "He's not mad at you, babe." I say. She nods her head quickly. "Yes." She says quietly. "No he is not. He's happy for you. He wants you happy, even if it isn't with him." I reassure her. "Promise?" She asks unsure. "Promise." I respond. She brings her hand in front of me with her pinky out. I wrap my pinky around hers. She smiles a big smile. I stare at her smile. It's so beautiful. I look at her body and see how small it is. I realize that she hasn't eaten today. "Madelaine," I say. "Nessa." She says cutely. She needs to eat but that dumb ass voice is going to be yelling at her. I sigh and she looks at me worriedly. "Are you okay?" Madelaine asks quickly. "Yeah, I'm fine. I just realized you still haven't eaten today." I say. She slumps down into her chair. "No." She mumbles. "It's almost six. Let's go get you dinner." I say standing up. She shakes her head. "No food." Madelaine pouts. "Mads, you need to eat. Remember what I told you about this thing." I say tapping her head. She pouts, "Don't trust it. Don't listen to it." Madelaine remembers. "Exactly. I want you back to eating regularly, so let's start with dinner. Then tomorrow I can make you breakfast in bed. How does that sound?" I suggest. She smiles and mumbles an okay before getting up as well. "Veggie Grill?" I ask. She nods her head quickly before running into the guest room. I follow her to the guest room and see her sitting on her knees at the edge of the bed. "Cami come?" Madelaine asks excitedly. I laugh and nod my head, "Of course she can." I respond. Madelaine smiles at Camila. "Please." She begs. "Where we going?" Camila asks. "Veggie Grill for dinner." I say sitting next to Madelaine on the bed. "I'm down." Camila says. "Great." I say looking at Madelaine. She smiles at me. "Hey, babe?" I ask. She hums telling me to continue. "How about we go get dressed?" I ask. She looks at both of our outfits to see we are both still in our workout clothes. Except for the fact that Madelaine doesn't have bottoms on. She nods and stretches out her hands. "I'm going to be carrying you for the rest of my life aren't I?" I ask getting off of the bed. She nods happily while wrapping her arms around my neck. I sigh while picking her up off of the bed. I hear Camila laugh at us as we leave the room. I set Madelaine on our bed and walk over to the closet. "Do you want some loose bottoms so they don't irritate your thigh?" I ask. I look back at her and see her nod. I grab her some sweats and then a casual t-shirt. I grab my usual outfit and give Madelaine hers. I quickly change into my clothes and then turn to see Madelaine still in her workout clothes. She's looking down at her thigh. I see a tear fall from her cheek onto the bandage. "Babe," I say while walking to her. She lets more tears fall freely down her cheeks. "I'm so stupid!" Madelaine yells. "Why would I do this? I'm such a fucking idiot! I'm so fucking insane and depressed! I'm a huge mess!" She yells to herself. Depressed. She's never used that word. I never thought she would. She was such a huge ball of sunshine. I never imagined her to be depressed. I snap out of my thoughts once I see her hitting at the cuts. I quickly grab her hands. She tries to pull her hands out of my grip. "Let go of me!" Madelaine yells at me while sobbing. I ignore her demand and keep my grip around her wrists. "Mads, please stop." I soothe. She shakes her head. "Please. Stop blaming yourself for this. It's not your fault. Stop trying to hurt yourself." I whisper trying to calm her. She stops fighting and collapses on to my chest. She sobs into my neck. I rub circles into her back softly. Camila enters into the doorway. "Are you guys okay?" She mouths. I nod my head slightly. She gives me a sad smile before walking away. "Why do you love me?" I hear Madelaine mumble into my neck. "I love you because you are the most kind hearted person I know. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. You stick up for me in any situation. You can make me smile when I'm in my worst state. You help me find happiness. You understand me for who I am. You are the strongest person I know. You have been through so much and you still believe in happy endings. You helped me believe in happy endings. You care for people so much. You believe that so many people are good until they prove they aren't. You are my best friend. You are my soul mate. You are the one person who taught me what love is. I've always had my doubts when it came to love. But when I met you it's like I understood it perfectly." I think aloud. "You are the love of my life and I am going to help you through this. I will not give up on you. I love you. Always. Forever. No matter what." I say holding Madelaine closer than before. "Promise?" Madelaine asks holding out her pinky. "Promise." I say wrapping my pinky around hers. "You know we don't need to make a promise for everything." I say. "Helps me feel safe." Madelaine mumbles. "What if I got us matching promise rings? So you can always know that I promise to love you until the day I die. I promise to never hurt you. I promise to never give up on you. I promise to keep you safe. Forever. Always. No matter what." I suggest. She smiles at me. "Matching rings." Madelaine nods. "Good." I say kissing her forehead. She blushes and looks down at her hands. "Let's get you dressed, yeah?" I ask getting up. She nods. She gets up as well and lifts up her arms. I take off her shirt and put the clean one on. I grab the sweats and hold them for her to step into. She steps into them and I place the top of them on her hips. "You look so beautiful in something just as casual as sweatpants and a t-shirt." I say wrapping my hands around her waist. "You look beautiful too." Madelaine compliments. I feel heat rush to my cheeks so I look away quickly. Madelaine grabs my chin and makes me face her. "You are beautiful." Madelaine says before placing her lips on top of mine. I put my hands behind her neck and pull her closer. After moments we both pull apart in need of air. "We should really get to dinner before it gets too late." I laugh. She nods. She grabs my hand and interlaces our fingers before dragging me out of the room. Camila looks up from her phone and smiles at us. "Someone looks happy." Camila chimes. Madelaine nods her head, "I'm really happy." She says looking at me. I smile at Madelaine before looking to Camila and seeing her taking pictures. "I'm so going to send these to Casey." Camila says typing on her phone. I laugh as does Madelaine.

Sorry if it wasn't good. I've been trying to finish this since Wednesday. I hope you guys like it though. I know this chapter was kind of everywhere I'm sorry. I might update later since I will be on the road for hours with nothing to do.

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