Behind The Scenes Of Choni: A Madnessa Story [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 13

[MADELAINE'S POV]
I sit in Vanessa's arms enjoying the feeling. It feels warm. It feels safe. It feels like home. "Babe?" Vanessa asks softly. "Yeah?" I mumble while nuzzling in her neck. "Want to go get Veggie Grill?" She asks rubbing my back. I shake my head. "I don't want to eat." I whisper. Vanessa sighs deeply, "You need to eat, Mads." I whimper at that. I didn't want to eat. I just didn't feel like it. "When was the last time you ate?" She asks pulling away slightly so I would look at her. "Yesterday at the hospital." I say. "You barely ate any of that food." Vanessa states with a frown. "You're so tiny and I hate it. This isn't healthy. You look like you've lost so much weight. You just got out of the hospital. You need to be taking care of yourself." She says with a tear falling down her cheek. You haven't lost enough weight. You're still fat. I ignore the voice as best as I can. "Please don't cry." I say. I wipe away her tear with my thumb. "I-I need you. I want y-you healthy. You're hur-rting yourself." She sobs into my chest. Look. You've made the poor thing sad. That wasn't me that was you. She thinks it's your doing. She doesn't know I exist, and if she did she would think you're crazy. I stop responding to the voice knowing Vanessa is more important. "Baby, please stop crying." I whisper. I feel a few tears fall down my face. Vanessa sniffles and looks at me with tear stained cheeks. "We can go eat. I will eat, okay?" I reassure her. Don't eat. You're fat enough. Just ignore it. Just ignore it. She looks at me unsure. "Promise." I say holding out my pinky. She links her pinky around mine and gives me a small smile "Promise." Vanessa says. She wipes her tears before standing up. "We should get ready." Vanessa says walking to the bathroom. I follow behind her. "Do you want to eat there or bring it home?" I ask. "I don't really care, why?" She asks brushing her hair. "So I know if I need to put on makeup or not." I say looking at myself in the mirror. I usually don't wear makeup when I'm not on set but I've just felt really insecure lately. I feel too pale or like the bags under my eyes are dark and disgusting. I feel like I'm covered in acne. I just feel ugly. "You don't need makeup, Mads. You're beautiful just the way you are." Vanessa says looking at me in the mirror. I look down and feel tears form in my eyes. I decide against arguing with her right now. I nod my head and mumble an 'ok'. "Remember the last time we were in here together?" I ask. She nods her head slowly. "I was gushing over Travis to you." I say remembering it. She looks down at her feet. I walk to her and raise her chin slowly. I look into her eyes, "I know this is something I shouldn't be proud of but when I was dating Travis I knew I was in love with you. I knew I was in love with you for the longest time. I was just afraid. Afraid to be with you. Afraid to get rejected. Afraid that you would hurt me how everyone else did. I found Travis and he reminded me of you so much. He's brutally honest and funny. His humor is rude and childish. He's a huge dork too. He has tattoos and piercings. He's like the male version of you. He may be like you but he isn't you. I tried to fall in love with him but he's not you." I reassure her as tears fall down her cheeks. "I love you so much." Vanessa mumbles. "I love you too." I say before pecking her lips. I pull away but she pulls me back and kisses me harder. Not full of lust but full of passion and love. Vanessa pulls away slowly. "We should really get ready." I laugh. Vanessa laughs with me and nods her head. I play with the ends of Vanessa's hair. "Can I do your hair?" I ask with a pouty face. "What are you going to do with it?" She asks curiously. "Maybe a braid?" I ask. She gives me a smile. "Okay." She sighs. I clap my hands excitedly with a huge grin on my face. In the middle of braiding Vanessa's hair she speaks up, "Are you okay with being in public right now?" She asks nervously. "I think I can manage. Better now than later." I say mumbling the last part. "You just got back from the hospital. If you don't want to eat there we don't have to." She reassures. "I will be okay baby. Thank you for worrying though." I say finishing her braid. I kiss her cheek before she gets up to get changed. While Vanessa changes I fix my hair and brush my teeth. I walk out of the bathroom and see Vanessa in yoga pants and a bra. "Can I borrow a shirt? I guess I forgot one." She asks. "Yeah grab whatever you want." I smile. She walks to my closet and picks a tank top. "Will you pick my outfit?" I ask shyly. She smiles, "Of course babe." Vanessa smiles. I sit on my bed and wait for her to hand me the outfit. After a few moments Vanessa hands me an outfit and I look at both articles of clothing. A tight v-neck tank top, and light blue shorts that don't even reach my mid thigh. I put on the outfit and look at myself in the mirror. I turn around and see Vanessa looking at me and biting her lip. "Be careful you might start drooling." I tease. She rolls her eyes before grabbing her purse. I laugh and follow her to the car. We arrive at Veggie Grill. I decide to go find a seat since Vanessa knows my order. I find a secluded area and sit there hoping nobody else will sit in the area. I wait anxiously for a few minutes waiting for Vanessa. She comes with both of our meals and sits in front of me. "Are you okay?" She asks worriedly. "Yeah, I'm fine just anxious is all." I say shakily. Vanessa grabs my hand across the table. "We can leave if you want?" She asks sweetly. "No. I want to do this. I want to sit here in public." I say taking a deep breath. Everyone is going to be staring. They will be judging. I push away the voice as far back as I can and focus on Vanessa's eyes. A beautiful caramel brown. They shimmer slightly. She gives me a small smile, "Okay." She whispers. She sets my food in front of me. "This can kind of be like our first date. I know it's nothing special but being with you makes me happy enough." Vanessa says. I smile at that. "Yeah. A first date." I say. "I love you Madelaine." Vanessa says kissing my knuckles. "I love you too Vanessa." I blush.

So I'm really tired but I wanted to finish this for you guys. I hope you guys like it. I'm a little loopy right now so I don't know if it's good or not. I will try and update in a few days. I've just been really busy I'm so sorry. I hope you guys like whatever is going on in this chapter. 😂😂