Behind The Scenes Of Choni: A Madnessa Story [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 8

         [CAMILA'S POV]
   I can't help but worry. Can something go wrong during her surgery? How do they do stomach surgery? What if she loses a lot of blood? Could she die during the surgery? What if the surgery doesn't work?

   My thoughts are cut short by the door opening to reveal a worried Casey. He sees me in the recliner and walks to me quickly. He crouches down in front of me. He grabs my face and wipes away my tears softly. I didn't even know I was crying until I felt the cold air hit my tear stained cheeks.

   "Hey, it's going to be okay." He says softly. "What if something goes wrong?" I ask letting the tears fall freely. "It won't. She will be okay." He says pulling me into his arms. I couldn't help but cry in his arms. He holds me tighter rubbing my back softly.

  I cry for what seems like forever. I stop with a sniffle. "Who all did you tell?" I ask my voice weak. "I just told Vanessa and Travis." He says rubbing my shoulders trying to soothe me. "Okay. I don't think she wants a lot of people to know." I say quietly. "Why not?" He asks confused. "She's just in a bad place right now. I think attention is the last thing she wants." I sigh.

  "I'm sorry. Was she upset that I wanted to see her?" He asks sadly. "She was unsure for a bit wether she wanted you here or not but she eventually agreed. I think she's trying to get better. She's just doing it at her own pace." I explain. He nods, "What shall we do while we wait?" He asks trying to lighten the mood. I shrug. "How about we go to the cafeteria and get some food? I'm starving." He says holding his stomach. Suddenly my stomach growls loudly. "Looks like someone else is hungry too." He laughs.

   I couldn't help but laugh. He's always there to help me feel better. I nod and get out of the recliner. He takes my hand and leads me out of the room. We walk down the hall entering the cafeteria.

  "What do you want?" He asks looking around. "Salad?" I basically ask. "Try again." He laughs. I think for a moment. "Pizza!" I say excitedly. "Now you're thinking!" He says ruffling my hair. I groan and inch away. Casey runs up to the pizza court and gets two large pizzas. One ham and pineapple and the other pepperoni.

  "What do you want to drink?" He asks politely. "Water." I say. He scrunches his face. "What's with being healthy today?" Casey groans. "Fine. You pick then." I state. "Hmmm...." He taps his chin in thought, "How about cream root beer?!" He asks excitedly. "Sounds great." I laugh. He jumps up in excitement and leaves quickly.

   He comes back with two large cups. "Help me here! I'm about to drop the pizza!" Casey says trying to keep everything in his hands. I quickly grab the drinks. "Thank you." He says relieved. "I would have lost my mind if I dropped this food." He says walking away. I laugh and follow behind him.

   We get to the room and get comfortable. Casey sits on the couch and I get on the recliner. "It's kind of cold. Do you have blankets in your car?" I ask. "I was just thinking the same thing. Let me go get them." He says jumping up. "Be right back!" He says before leaving the room.
      [VANESSA'S POV]
   I don't know how long I've been crying. Seems like hours. It may be hours I don't know anymore. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. I could only blame myself for this.

   She's in the hospital because of me. She's in surgery because of me. She got physically sick because of me. I can't believe I did this to her. I told her I would never hurt her. Now she's in the hospital. She can't even look at me. I would trade places with her if I could. She doesn't deserve this pain. She doesn't deserve the stress. She has never done anything to anybody. I would do anything to see her happy again.

   I get cut out of my thoughts when I hear a knock at my door. I quickly wipe away my tears and get up to answer it. It's Travis. "Hey." He sighs. "Travis? What are you doing here?" I ask confused. "I heard Mads was in the hospital and I came to see if you were okay." He says politely. "Um, yeah. I'm fine." I say quickly. "Your bloodshot eyes say other wise." Travis says concerned.

   My vision start to get blurry, my eyes being filled with tears. I close my eyes feeling the fresh tears stream down my face. "It's all my fault." I cry. Travis pulls me into a hug holding me against his chest. "No it is not." He says quietly. "Isn't it? I caused her so much stress that she started getting physically sick not to mention emotionally and mentally." I sob.

   "You did not cause that. It's just been built up for so long and she's just starting to deal with it again. She just needs time, okay. She's going to be okay." He says rubbing my back as I sob. I know what he's saying is true but there's just a part of me that blames myself. "Why aren't you at the hospital?" I ask. "She doesn't want to see me. She doesn't need me right now." He says sadly.

  "Do you love her?" He asks quietly. I've come to terms with my feelings for Madelaine. I know I've put them away for so long, but if he already knows then there's no point denying it. I am in love with Madelaine, and he knows it. I've just never wanted to say that aloud.

   "Um..." I look away from him. What if he gets mad at me? I mean it is his girlfriend after all. How do you tell someone that you're in love with their girlfriend. "I won't be mad. I promise. I just want to make sure." Travis says. "Yeah. I do. I love her so much." I say truthfully.

  I never thought it would feel this good to say it aloud. He gives me a big smile. "She deserves you, and you deserve her." He says giving me a hug. "Thank you, Travis." I smile. I know I love her, and that Travis is happy for me but how am I supposed to tell her? Does she love me back? Is this going to ruin our friendship? I don't want this to come in between our friendship.

   "Vanessa." Travis says, "Stop thinking about the bad things that could happen. Think about the good things that could happen. Be positive." He says reassuringly. I nod and give him a big smile. He gives me another hug and I hug him back.

  
   His phone goes off causing him to let go of me. "Hello?" He asks. "I'm at Vanessa's." He says looking at me. "Really?" He asks shocked. "Okay. I'll be right there." He says quickly before hanging up the phone. "I'm sorry Nessa but I gotta go." Travis says. "Where?" I ask confused. "The hospital. Apparently Madelaine wants to talk to me." He says unsurely. "Oh okay." I say sadly.

   It hurt to know she wants Travis instead of me. Just how she's going to choose him over me. "Nessa." He says getting my attention. "I love you." Travis says with a small smile. "I love you too." I reply. With that he leaves and I'm left alone; again.

So I'm just doing a bunch of update because I have nothing to do and I can't sleep sooooo enjoy...? Sorry if they're bad. I'm sick again and I'm honestly super tired I just can't sleep. But I hope you like them!