Just random things

Loosing people you love

A/N: I was inspired to write the first part of this by TheMusicalTrash

So I don't really know what to call this cause it's just a jumble of things going on:

New school: next year I'm going to a new school, with only a handful of people I know, and every step into it, it gets more real. When I got my acceptance letter, it got more real. When I took my placement test, it got more real. When I took my separate math placement test, when I got out of school this year, when I got mailed my schedule. Every time something happens it gets more real, and I have both positive and negative feelings about it.

A new school means making new friends and meeting new people, which is great, but it also means loosing a lot of my current friends. Now, I already know so many people going to that school/already there (A, J, K, E, R, maybe M in the future, and others as well) but I'm leaving behind people I've known all my life. I've known C since I was 2 years old, and to not see her everyday is so weird since we've always gone to the same schools, and we live in the same neighborhood. A lot of my friends I've known since pre-school, even some of the local assholes, it's gonna be weird not seeing them every day.

Sisters: so I have two older sisters. Sister M is a step-mom and mom, so she's got her life figured out with her football coach husband and her jock kids. She was living on her own by the time I was a baby so she wasn't around much when I was younger, but now that she's settled down, somehow she makes time to be with her family.

KK on the other hand was about 13 when I was born, so we've always been really close, since we lived under the same roof for 4 years, time skip through college, and then about 2 years after that before she moved out. I get most of my personality from her: my love of music and theater, my sense of humor, and my constant need to help people (she has a master's degree in counseling which she always wanted to do. Quote from her graduation speech: "I want to show people I actually give a crap!"). I've been really sad lately, because KK is planning to move to LA with her boyfriend for work (he's in the film business) in the fall, which is so far from here, and I won't see them more than maybe for Christmas, whereas now they'll just drop by every now and then to have dinner with me and our dad. She always comes Easter morning, Christmas morning, on my birthday, and basically anything that's important to me (shows, school things) she'll be there, and now she's not gonna be there, and I feel like I'm loosing a part of me.

I think I'm gonna stop writing now. I'm already crying over my sister, and when I cry, all my writing just gradually gets more and more depressing.

I hope your life is going better than mine right now.

Cya!