Just random things

My imagination is weird

I just woke up and I needed to write this. Last night I had probably one of the weirdest dreams I've ever had that I remember.

So I never knew why, but the dream started out with me and my mom in a trailer on the road, on the way to see a concert where Panic! Was opening for some KPop band or vice versa. Obviously I was going to see Panic!

I never got to see the concert, because next thing I knew, I had to get my arm amputated for whatever reason, so we took the trailer to the hospital.

The next thing I knew I was in a hospital room and my mom was just outside, and I was so scared I was crying. I repeatedly asked the doctor if I could be asleep for the procedure, but she kept saying it wasn't necessary, and I extremely reluctantly agreed.

She did give me a lot of pain killers though. She started preparing my arm by rubbing some liquid on it and doing some other things. My head was turned so I didn't have to watch.

Eventually she started cutting, but it wasn't at my arm. It was at my ankle, where there wasn't pain killers, but I didn't think anything of it.

So in the end she amputated my foot, and I was in tears because it was so painless and I was so happy and infatuated. You know how amputees sometimes say your mind still thinks it's there so it sends the nervous directions to whatever limb, and it's just not there, but it still feels normal like it's doing something? That exactly how I felt when I lifted my leg up to look, and I was flexing my foot and I still felt like it in my brain, but nothing was actually happening.

And when I woke up I had tears in my eyes, and I felt this weird sensation in my ankle. The one my foot was removed from. It was kinda tingly and numb. I'm not really sure how to describe it, but it was a weird feeling.