Meredith And Nathan: fight for your L(ife)ove

Someone take me home

I was at work, again. I didn't worry about fetus for a while, I went to the cafeteria and drank coffee, ate five croissants, you know, everything normal. Except for the croissants thing, I got the cravings, I really got them.
We were at a surgery workshop with Dr. Bailey, we were teaching med students some important surgical terms, and I suddenly felt a very hard ache in my belly. Something was wrong.
I decided to go to OB, practically running, but I didn't tell Nathan, because I didn't want to upset him. When I arrived, a doctor saw me. Her name was... wait. Are you ready for this part of the story?
-Addison? What the hell, I thought you were in California.
-I recently moved back in, about a month ago. So you are pregnant, again.
-I am, but it's not Derek's.
-Honey, I know, you can't be pregnant of a person that's been dead for years, can you?
-So you already know...
-Of course I know, and I am really sorry for your loss. But hey, look at you now. You have moved on, you are pregnant and happy.
-You never really move on, you just try to rebuild your life, I don't know.
-Ok so let's take a look at this baby, shall we?
-Ok
After a few minutes, I could see an expression on Addison's face that wasn't the best. She was really silent.
-Addison, what's wrong?
-Meredith, I...
-Tell me, now!
-I, um, I'm so sorry for your loss
-What?
-It doesn't have a heartbeat anymore. It is dead, Mer. We need to take fetus out of there before it starts compromising your system.
-What?- I said crying. No, this is not funny.
-Do you want me to call the father?
-Yes, I said with such a sad tone. I felt as if the world ripped my heart from my chest. A part of me had died. I felt empty, as if the gap there was in my heart would never be able to fill up again. The pain was unimaginable.
-Nathan. I'm so sorry, I killed your baby
-Shh, no, don't say that honey, you did nothing wrong. We'll get through this together. Ok?
-Nathan, I feel really sad. Like really really sad. It sounds stupid but you actually don't realize the meaning of true sadness until it knocks you.
-We will survive this
-Nathan, take me home please. I want to go home
-I will honey, we are going home.

On the way home:
-You know, that thing you said about me taking you home?- he said-I am your home, don't you ever doubt that. I am your home, and you are my home. I need you too.
-I don't want to talk.
-Are you mad at me?
-No, Nathan. I'm heartbroken. I'm not mad.