Meredith And Nathan: fight for your L(ife)ove

Trailblazer

Trailblazer: pioneer, innovator, groundbreaker, courageous... I am a trailblazer.
Who says you can't do many things at the same time? Ever heard of multitasking? Honey, it's 2018, come on...
I am a mom, to four beautiful children. I am a fiancée to a ridiculously handsome surgeon, I am a well-known surgeon, an excellent sister to Maggie, and probably to Amelia if she hadn't fucked up so badly... I am so wonderful.
Wait, am I?
I've been a terrible mother lately, more like my mom, a terrible fiancée, always barking to Nathan. Surgeon? Come on, I haven't worked for six months. Sister? I am most definitely not the best at giving advice. So maybe I'm not as wonderful...
-Meredith, are you kidding me? You were a terrible wife, Derek would have probably left you if he hadn't died anyway...
-Don't you dare Amelia! You don't get to do that. You don't get to tell me how my husband felt, I saw him the other day, I spoke to him, he was happy for me, he loves me! So stop talking shit!
-So you talk to dead people now? So creepy...
-Don't try to make me look like the crazy one, you are the insane here. Don't speak to me ever again, unless it's to apologize for all the harm you've done.
So according to Amelia, I was bad for Derek, and insane... she tries to reflect her own problems on other people... wait, could she be right? I need Nathan right now.
-Nathan, I keep going to voicemail, I need you here, asap. Beep
A few minutes later he was at the door:
-Hey, are you alright?
-No, I had a huge fight with Amelia... she told me Derek would have left me if he hadn't died, and that I was insane.
-Mer, you are not insane, and Derek wouldn't have left you. Hey, why do you care so much anyway? Not like she has the truth of everything...
-Nathan, am I toxic for you?
-Of course not Mer, you are the one I love...

Why do some people make us doubt about ourselves? Are they wrong or overconfident? Or do we need to higher our self-esteem? Who is wrong and who is right?
You need to ask yourself the following question: is this person telling you this for your well-being or just because THEY are toxic? If so, don't let them bring you down. You are powerful, you are worth it, you are strong.
You, you are a trailblazer...