Meredith And Nathan: fight for your L(ife)ove

Broken

Broken: not in one piece. Something that, even though you wanna fix, will always have a scar that reminds itself it once broke.
-Amelia, I might have made a mistake divorcing. I still love him, but he also cheated on me, we always fight. What if I chose him just because I didn't want to be alone? That is so cruel... but he also cheated on me
-Meredith, for the fiftieth time, he did not cheat on you!
-Ok so if you leave that aside, I'm the bad guy in the story!
-Mer, if you have to think about it so much then it's because you regret it. And that is even more complicated, because you broke his heart, and his dignity. And that is very hard to repair.
-But I won't tell him. I mean, who wants to be with a person that leaves you suddenly just because? I'm so the bad guy in the story...
-Stop, okay? You are not a bad person, you just made a bad decision, which doesn't turn you into a bad person
-But I broke him! And I broke me, again. And I have a pretty good reason, which is we were always fighting! You can't live with a person in those conditions, can you?
-Nope, you can't
-See that's my point. So after all, even though I still love him and it's hard to let him go, I made the right decision. It's for the better. Definetely.
-You sound like you are trying to convince yourself Mer, are you, convinced?
-Of course!.... not. Not really. But what's done is done, right?
-Right. But you know this isn't a video game, right? This is life. You can't turn back time, but you can do something in the present.
-Something like what?
-Telling him how you feel
-He would kill me!
-He is crazy for you, he would forgive you!
-You don't get it, he might be crazy for me, but he has dignity! He has feelings which I clearly beat up, punched, choked, like Alex did with Deluca
-Do you realize you are talking about feelings?
-Still. I won't tell him, ever. I will die with this secret in my chest.
-What if you tell him the truth and he decides he wants to be with you and you get your happily ever after?
-Amelia, this is real life. And specially me? Honey, I have no happy ever afters. At all.
-Just talk to him, make him feel comfortable. Tell him you decided to be a little less harsh because of the child you have in common. Try to get on well. After all, you will see him for the rest of your life...
-Ok, maybe I should let him know I'm sorry for being a jerk earlier...

-Nathan! May I speak to you?
-You didn't wanna talk to me and you made it very clear.
-Please wait, I want to apologize
-There's no need to do that, you made it very clear too
-Nathan, I'm trying to be nice, because I realize I was being a jerk earlier. You are making it a little hard to be nice
-So now you are the one trying to pick a fight- he said
-I'm not. Ok? please, let me talk
-Fine, just one minute, I have surgery.
-Nathan, we will see each other for the rest of our lives, we have a child together, and it's our job to raise him well, and give him comfort. Apart from that, we should make it comfortable to interact between us if we'll keep on doing this for eternity.
-I said that earlier, and you didn't agree. Why are you here anyway, not like you care...
-I was trying to hide my feelings, but I need to let you know the cold, stupid Meredith is gone. I want us to be okay, to have a good relationship. We had a great love story, and maybe it didn't end well. But for the love we felt for all that time, we need to treat each other with respect.
-One: what feelings are you trying to hide? Don't worry, you already broke my own..
Two: you didn't seem to want to treat me with respect earlier... - he implied
-I'm sorry, I came here and told you everything I had to, if you don't wanna listen to me, it's fine. I'll leave you alone now...
-Ok wait up. I'm being a total idiot right now. I'm sorry.
-Nathan, we have broken hearts, not broken lives. We have a broken dream, not a broken future. We can at least try to have a normal relationship.
-We can, yes.- he agreed
-Thank you, thank you- I said really emotionally, with tears peeping through my eyes.
-Do you need a hug?- he asked me
-Yes, please- I said.
I needed him more than ever, but a hug was as much as I could get for the moment. I would have to get used to that, just friendly hugs.