Meredith And Nathan: fight for your L(ife)ove

What was it all?

-So let me get this straight-I said- We crashed into an island, and we were there for almost two entire days. So all those things I saw, they never happened?
-No, that never happened
-So it was what, agony?
-Yes, because those things you remember never happened, never could have, because you were there for only two days, not weeks.
-I knew it, because I saw George and then I saw Derek and then I also saw Izzie. And that's when I realized she was dead. How the hell did we survive two entire days in such agonizing conditions?
-Well, the emotional shock you had kept you from dying of dehydration, or starvation, or internal injuries. That's what kept you alive

So they had kept me alive this whole time. First George, then Nathan, Izzie and Derek. Now I know that, although three of them are dead, they will never leave me alone. Never.

-What about Nathan? Is he okay?
Judging by the look on their faces, it was bad
-Mer-
-No! Don't Mer me. How is Nathan doing?
-He um-
-How bad is it? Bailey just tell me!
-He is having brain surgery, he could die, or he could lose his memory, speech, personality. But you know how this goes, you have been in brain surgery...
-Who is operating on him?
-Dr. Koracick is operating on Nathan, but he won't know how bad the damage is until he wakes up, and if he wakes up. I'm so sorry Mer.
-No, you're not. You had my dead husband operate on yours once. But he is alive. You don't know what it is like to see your husband almost die once while your best friend operating on him while being threatened by a gunman. You never cried over the body of your dead husband, who was a brain surgeon and was declared brain-dead. You never had to carry for nine months a baby on your own, a baby whose father is dead. And you have never been in a plane crash, where your boyfriend is dying. So believe me, you are not sorry: don't you imagine, not even for a second, that you had to go through half the things I had to go through. And it's no fun believe me.
-Meredi-
-Can you just leave me alone please? And just bring Koracick when he is done in surgery.
-Y-yes, okay
-And Bailey? I'm sorry
-I know, just have some rest

The next day...
-Meredith Grey, 37 years old, victim of a plane crash admitted with severe injuries. One day post op from a thoracotomy.
-I am fine, I could have done the thoracotomy on myself had I wanted to.
-Modest Dr. Grey- Bailey said
-Hey, my mother was Ellis Grey. Do you know how Amelia and Owen are doing?
-They, their lungs collapsed. They coded twice, each of them. But they are pretty stable now. However, they were both left in the icu for further observation. They could code again any minute.
-Coded two times in one day? Oh god.
I didn't want this time to be like the time with the "seattle grace five". I don't want anyone to die, I don't wanna be the only survivor- I started crying
-Grey, It'll be okay-Bailey said
-No Bailey, none of this is okay...