Meredith And Nathan: fight for your L(ife)ove

Trying to thrive

It's all about new beginnings: someone once told me that the past wasn't something I could erase just like that in order to start a new life, with a promising future. Oh wait, that was me...
And it's true, the past will always be with us, no matter what. So how do we thrive, with our past always remembering us the things we weren't capable of doing? Well, that's a different story...
-Hey, can you take the kids today? Look, I know Zola, Bailey and Ellis aren't your kids, so if you don't wanna do this it's totally okay.
-But why not? Sure, I'll take the four of them today.
-Thank you, I have a surgery scheduled for midnight so I won't make it home until seven in the morning.
-No worries!
-Thank you, see you later.
-Oh Mer?
-Yes?
-I will never imagine, even for a second, to replace Derek, and I know I'm not their dad, but I can act as one if you want me to or need me to.
-Thank you, I appreciate it Nathan. I gotta go, see you later...

Ok that hit me hard, it was... unexpected.

The next morning...

-Kids, I need to talk to you. Would you like to keep spending time with Nathan?
-Of course mom- Zola said- he might not be dad but he is very close to being one. I want him help you raise us.
-Ok so then I'll arrange things so you can see him at least once a week, ok?
-Yay!

At the hospital...
-Hey, so I've talked with the kids and they wanna see you, so what if you see them at least every friday?
-I'd love to, honestly. I know it's not my place to occupy, but thank you for the opportunity Mer.
Whenever he calls me Mer, my skin tingles and I can't help the chills.
-You don't have to thank me, Nathan. I do it for them. Anyway, see you later.
-See you- he said

From his point of view, everything was more than alright. From my point of view, everything was more than messed up. I sometimes forget about him, for a while. But then all our memories come back to my mind, and I can't stop. We have been through hell together and now? Now nothing mattered at all, it has all faded.
That made me really sad. And as much as I wanted to forget about him, I wasn't okay at all. Hasn't it ever happened to you? You know, losing someone you want? I'm sure you can relate, we all do. How do we get used to that kind of pain? Well, the truth is, you never get used to it. You just fight everyday, you just try... try to thrive

————
Author's note:
I'm sorry, I might have changed the story from past to present tense, I hope it's not confusing