The Dream Is Not Over

Not Yet

Warning: Sexual content ahead...

The glowing couple pack up and are immediately taken to board a private plane. Hopefully they can rest and when they wake, they will be in Hawaii. I remember Maui fondly and it's still one of my favorite places on earth. Sue and Al have decided that once they're home, they will go on another trip, a road trip this time- possibly cross country. I stare out the window into the night, already in our pajamas, and I sigh.

"What are you thinking about?" Lindsey asks, wrapping his arms around me.

"Nothing..." I'm quiet for a beat and I know he's waiting for me to say something. I never just leave it at nothing. "It's just that everyone is going somewhere. It's too late in the pregnancy to really go anywhere fun or far away and I miss traveling."

He chuckles. "I miss it too but I promise, I will take you somewhere spectacular as soon as you are ready and able."

My eyes lights up and turn around in his arms. "Really?"

He smiles at me. "Yes, really. I miss traveling too, especially alone with you."

"We won't be alone, we will have the baby."

"When she's older, we could see if River would want to watch her. Their kid will be close in age with ours. It could be fun."

"Or it could be a disaster."

"It could be, but I don't think so. Maybe it will make him want to give us more grandchildren."

"I never thought I'd be a new mother and become a grandmother in the same year," I think aloud.

"Well, I'm going to be a new father and become a grandpa in the same year. We're in this together. Maybe the kids will keep us young."

"Or run us ragged."

"Wow, Steph! You're so positive!," Lindsey jokes.

I giggle. "I don't mean to be negative about this, I'm just worried. I'm 39, Linds."

"I'm not far behind you, angel."

"I know but sometimes I wonder if I was too ambitious in wanting this baby. We have been nonstop for years, and now we have to take a break. I don't mind, but what if when I get back out there, I don't have it anymore?"

"That's insane! Steph, you still have it even standing right in front of me. You are you and that's what you put out on that stage. You will always have it. And about us being non stop for years, that's very true but this break is needed. We deserve to take time to be a family. In those years on the road, we let our bodies and minds suffer, we ignored our emotions and it took a toll on our relationship. I'm all for us being selfish and taking like 5 years to be at home with our child."

"Five years?" I ask. My eyes must be the size of saucers because he chuckles, stroking a hair behind my ear.

"Even just a year at home would be great, and we need time for that vacation, remember? Olivia will be due at some point too and we need to make time to go up and see our son and his new family."

"It's so surreal."

"It is, but taking this break is going to be the best thing we've ever done."

"I hope you're right." He hugs me tightly, rubbing my back.

"Let's go to bed."

"You don't want to celebrate?" I ask, raising an eyebrow.

"You're tired, Steph and I'm not going to make you—"

I kiss him deeply, my tongue pushing at his lips. They open slightly and I moan softly, welcomed in immediately. I press him toward our bed and he plops down. I straddle his lap the best I can but there is much more of me than there used to be. He pulls the strap of my nightie down and kisses my shoulder, moving up my neck. I toss my hair aside and lean away, granting him better access as his hands squeeze my backside. I feel him growing beneath me and I tease him a little by moving my hips, he groans, capturing my lips again. Our kisses grow hungry and heated by the second and I don't think either of us can wait anymore.