Palpitations in Love

Recall

Idle mind
Ideally perfect waste of time
Remember the laughs
Remember goodbye
Recall the days we used to play
For it was over in the blink of an eye.

I'll just do what I know how to
Writing sloppy poems thinking about you.
Showing no clear direction
There is no grand design
But you are divinely torturous
& the memories are coldly malign.
Recall the days we used to play
& forget them just like I had to

But I'll give in and it'll all be in vain
For I fall into decay when I think about you.
Surface level hard to breach
The shitty scribbles are hard to read
But they tell the tale of what I want & it's you.

Subconscious screams
Sorrowful daydreams
Then I figure out why I feel so strange,
Today is the day of your birthday
& I recall the places we played & kissed
So when you're blowing out the candles
I'll still be in my pajamas, wanting all that I miss