Queen

Chapter 35

Maria and I made up, I explained EVERYTHING that happened while we weren't talking. She, of course, scolded me, apologized for pushing my boundaries and got giddy that I spent the night at Shawn's place in his bed.

We were talking as we walked to the music room, Maria was kind enough to lend me her clothes although I did feel out of my comfort zone wearing a push-up bra and lace underwear while wearing a black tank top showing a little bit of my cleavage and tight jeans. A part of me thinks she gave me this outfit on purpose but at the same time, I did watch her randomly grabbing clothes from her dresser.

We finally approached the music room when;

"FUCK!" I head a familiar deep voice shout from the music room just as I was about to enter. I stopped and stood outside for a minute listening in while I looked at Maria confused. I knew it was Shawn and he sounded completely distressed.

I stepped to the door and pushed it open. But as soon as I did it revealed Shawn, hunched over on the floor. He was breathing fast and heavily. I couldn't see his face since he hung it down but from what I can see it was kind of red, his eyes were shut tight and tears were falling down from his eyes. I immediately rushed over to him on the floor.

"Shawn?! Shawn, what's wrong?" I asked dropping to my knees and placing a hand on his back.
"I-I-I-I..." He tried to speak but he was breathing too hard. I moved over a bit so I was directly in front of him. I put both my hands on his shoulders and forced him to sit up. When he was sitting up I finally fully saw his face. His eyes were swollen, tears rushed down his cheeks and he finally opened his eyes looking at me. I looked up at Maria worried. She just stood there in shock.

"Shawn you're having a panic attack, you need to breathe." I tried to calmly explain to him looking him in the eyes. He just shook his head while closing his eyes tight.

"No, no!" I quickly grabbed his face, my hands on either side of his cheeks holding it firmly.
"Don't do that, I'm sure you're dizzy and your face is tingly, that's because your brain isn't getting oxygen, I NEED you to try and take a deep breath, please?" I tried making him realize the importance of it. But he wasn't lightening up.

"I-I'm gonna try something, it's weird but I need you to calm down!" I warned him and rushed forward. I gently but quickly pressed my lips against his. I heard Maria gasp. My actions seemed to have shocked him out of hyperventilating. I held his face in my hands and gently rubbed the pads of my thumbs on his cheeks. I had my eye's closed tight not wanting to see his reaction in fear of what it might have been.

When his breathing got better I pulled back completely letting go and opening my eyes. Shawn seemed to be ok aside from his sniffling from crying so hard. But he was just staring at me looking shocked.

"I-I saw it on a TV show and I guess it worked. Just know I didn't do that because I found pleasure in-" I was immediately cut off from Shawn reaching out to me and grabbing the back of my head. He pulled me towards him and crashed his lips on mine once again. This time was different though. He wasn't as rough and it seemed more... pleasurable. His lips were so plump and soft on mine, I couldn't help but get immersed into this kiss. I closed my eyes and placed a hand back on his cheek. I felt his breath completely uneven and realized the situation we were in.

I pulled away putting the back of my hand on my lips and checked him over again. He thankfully stopped hyperventilating and seemed a bit calmer.

"W-We need to get you home," I said. He just looked exhausted as he still sniffled. I stood up and watched Shawn just sit there.
"D-... Do you need help?" I asked.
"Y-Yeah." He croaked. I looked over at Maria and she quickly rushed over to us. She grabbed onto Shawn's left arm and I grabbed his right. We started to lift him but he was too heavy. Thankfully he noticed our struggle and tried himself to get up using me and Maria to pull himself up.

When he was finally on his feet I noticed he was all wobbly and shakey. I quickly stood right next to him wrapping his arm around my shoulder and wrapping my own arm around his side, Maria following my lead. We then started to carefully walk him out the room.

It was a long and tiring walk but we finally made it to Shawn's apartment. I asked Shawn about his key and he said it was in his front pocket. I reached into his pocket and pulled it out. I unlocked the door and pushed it open revealing his apartment. We got ourselves through the door and walked to the bed.

Maria and I carefully laid Shawn down on his bed. I looked down at him worried, he was definitely calmer now than when I found him in the music room but I don't want a repeat of what happened.

"Maria, you can go now, I want to stay with Shawn to make sure he'll be ok," I told her.
"You sure, Cece? I can help." She asked just as concerned as me. I gave her a small reassuring smile.
"Thank you, but I can handle it. I'll call you when I'm leaving." I told her. She sighed and nodded before she turned to leave. I look back over at Shawn and he just looked exhausted.

"You doing ok?" I asked as I sat down next to him on the edge of his bed. He looked up at me with a pained expression not saying anything.
"Do you mind if I get you a wet towel to wash off your face a bit?" I asked with a small smile and placed a hand on his chest. He just reached up and held my hand in his own.
"Lay with me..." He requested.
"Shawn, I-"
"Please, Cecilia. I need you close to me." I watched as his eyes started to water after he said it.
"Ok."