Queen

Chapter 32

Shawn and I sat on my bed, he held me for a few hours now but I really didn't mind I wanted to be held like this forever, I felt a sense of safety and comfort in it, from him. He stroked my hair and held me close. I had calmed down after awhile and we were just sitting there in silence.

"Maybe we should get out of here." He finally spoke up after hours of silence.
"Where?" I weakly asked, not really having any energy left in me.
"My place maybe? I just don't think you wanna stay here for awhile." He said. I just nodded.
"No, I don't. If you don't mind me going over I'd appreciate it." I said looking up at him.
"Of course not." He just gave me a small smile and placed a hand on my cheek. I flinched a bit because it still hurt from being hit by Lucas.
"I'm sorry!" He quickly apologized and pulled his hand away. I just shook my head and grabbed his hand, gently placing it back on my cheek.
"You're ok," I reassured him. He just looked at me sympathetically and leaned down kissing my forehead softly.

We take a minute but Shawn and I get up from the bed. I grabbed my keys and phone and put them in my pockets. Shawn waits for me patiently and then offers me his hand when he sees I have my things. I reach out taking it and he interlocks our fingers. It felt like my heart skipped a beat when he did. He then led me out the room.

It was a quiet walk but we made it all the way to Shawn's apartment. He opened the door and once he did he released my hand that he held the entire way over here. He started walking over to the kitchen and I just followed like a little puppy. He opened up one of the cabinets above the sink and pulled out a small plastic bag. He then walked over to the fridge and grabbed some ice cubes from the freezer and put them in the bag. He grabbed a towel, wrapped it around the bag and walked over to me.

"This is for you." He says holding up the makeshift ice wrap. I smiled slightly and took it from his hand.
"Thank you," I said before he leads me out the kitchen and to the couch which was right next to the kitchen area. I sat down and gently put the wrap on my face where my eye was swelling. I sighed and hung my head feeling somewhat relieved that it was all over with Lucas.

"Hey, Ce?" Shawn calls for my attention. I looked up at him and watched as he sat right next to me.
"Was the abuse from Lucas happening after we graduated?" He asked, his brows furrowed sympathetically.
"Yeah, it started almost immediately, which is honestly why I never tried reaching out to you..." I explained, feeling so good that I finally get to tell him the truth.
"Do you know why?" He kept prying.
"N-No... I guess he just snapped one day." I lied. But if I told him that it was because Lucas knew I kissed Shawn I'm sure he'd feel terrible.
"I see... I'm so sorry I tortured you in the beginning. I was just-"
"No Shawn, don't even worry about it. You didn't understand, you were mad and upset and I get that, let's just focus on bettering ourselves now." I stopped him from trying to make himself feel bad. He just gave me a small smile and nodded.
"May I apologize for last night then?" He asks.
"Mmm... no. We'll get bummed out." I laughed, removing the wrap from my eye because it was getting too cold. He just chuckled.
"Alright. Then let's watch a movie and get our minds off today ok?" He asked.
"Ok." I agreed.

Shawn set up his PlayStation 4 and went to his movie library. From there he had all Harry Potter movies and even the Fantastic Beasts one.
"Whoa... that's a lot of Harry Potter." I said, slightly amazed by his collection.
"Of course, it's only the best movie series ever made." He scoffed.
"I mean... I've seen like 3... out of order." I admitted. I looked over and Shawn's jaw was dropped as he stared at me shocked.
"Excuse me?!" He says offended.
"I've seen the snake one first, the stone one second and the goblet one third." I shrugged.
"Oh my God get out of my home!" He laughed making me laugh too.
"Listen, I used to be in love with Harry Potter when I was like a child but I just grew out of it." I defended myself.
"Well, you're gonna grow back into it, starting the right way!" He chuckled starting the first movie. I just shook my head smiling at him.

"Oh, give me a second." He says standing up, without pausing the movie and walking towards his bed on the other side of the room. I reach for the controller to hit pause but when I look over where he was sitting it wasn't there.
"Shawn you're missing the movie!" I said looking over at him. When I did I noticed he had the controller in his hand.
"I've seen it like a million times, Ce." He waved it off. I just shook my head and made myself comfortable on the couch. I watched Shawn a bit more and saw him texting on his phone before putting it in his pocket and making his way back over to me.

Halfway through the movie, I checked the time to see it was barely 4 but I felt so exhausted. I yawned and stretched my arms out. My ice wrap turned into water by now that just sat on Shawn's coffee table.

I leaned my head on Shawn's shoulder and cuddled against him. I felt his arm wrap around me, he put his hand on my waist and pulled me closer. I sigh in content and close my eyes.