Unspoken Words

18 years of bliss (Author's Note)

Before this day ends, just wanna spill some beans because it's too overwhelming. I received some heartfelt messages (surprised to the highest level) and realized a lot of things. I thought wtf these human beings really love and appreciate my existence while I'm sulking and doubting and stressing and blaming and hating my self for a lot of goddamn reasons. I really thought I am just a plain and uncooked nugget whom everyone easily forgets and takes for granted and only remembers when they needed something and a big ass asking machine BUT somehow, I kinda matters and that's just what I needed to hear and feel the most. I should give myself a break from all of the shits that life always gives because I've been doing just fine for the past years and failures and rejections and changes and wrong decisions and trusting temporary and toxic people and giving too much for those who really don't deserve even just an ounce are okay and (despite of that) I am (still and will always tries to be) okay and that's just what really matters. *giving my self some pat on the back bc I freaking deserve itttt* sorry it's so long bc they are inside of me for God knows how long hahaha I may look tougher on the outside but people, I am fragile and sensitive and emotional 3 year old peanut on the inside so pls hahaha lol Yey for legality!!!! 😂

Ps: I know it's weird. But let me. This has been my outlet for almost a year now. Reading every chapter makes me remember those memories that I will never trade for anything even if it's a bad one. This is one of my destressing area. And if this bothers you, don't read my works. I won't mind. That's your decision💖

Pps: Happy birthday, self!!!

I want to share my thoughts to you because I want you to know that there will always be a bad day/s. It exists. And it's normal. It's okay as long as you are okay. And if not, you will be. I promise. We will all be the best version of ourselves someday.

Hold on to that.

And hey? Be happy🙂