Unspoken Words

Inevitable

We always look at the wrong side of life
the messiest part of it; the ugliest decisions we've ever made and still be making,
the wrong side of the world that we choose to go to
We always asked for the wrong questions and expects to hear an appropriate answer
We always do things other people expects us to do even if we are not that kind of person
We always wanted to be applauded by the people who doesn't even know our surname
We always longed for assurance and something to look forward to
We always needed the signs even if the answer sits right infront of us
We always want things to stay like always not because we are afraid of adjusting but because we are not used to it.
We are not used to do things other than the usual and always
We are not afraid of change but what comes right after it, that's what we fear the most.
The aftermath of the changes.
The things that will happen right after it started,
the inevitable truth of life.
But you know what?
These things are a bunch of nonsense packed in a duffel bag
We can never avoid the unavoidable but we have a say on how we can approach it
The fact that life is a war that we need to survive, we can still choose our battles because we are the commander in chief of our own lives
The earth may be the cruelest place in the universe but I will never rot in hell wishing that I should just live my fucking life without thinking about my neighbor talking about how I dress like a whore or my so called friends talking behind my back or the people around me gossiping about how messed up my life is or how I hosted my own puppet show where other people are the one who pulls the strings and not me.
None of it matters because this is my life. I can do what I want and I can mess my life even more but that's on me. I am the one who's responsible and will suffer for the consequences and not you so,
who are you to judge?
This. is. my. fucking. life
And I am going to live every single bit of it with a pinch of doubts and failures because that's just how life works wether we like it or not
You just gotta get over it and start writing in a new page with a better border, font, font size, spelling, grammar and content this time.
And all the damn time.