A world without you

Chapter 18 - Hiccup's POV

I couldn't hear. I couldn't see. I couldn't do anything. I think that I kept screaming her name until my voice broke. I think that I lied on the floor crying and saying her name over and over again. I think I heard Heather and Fishlegs trying to talk with me, help me but nothing could help me. Astrid was dead and so was my heart. 
Dagur and the other riders found us and got us out of the cell but it was too late.
"Astrid?" asked someone
"We'll explain later." Said Heather. I knew what she meant, she meant when I wasn't there.
"Now we need to get out of here." Said Snoutlout I think
"No, we need to find the dragons first." Said Fishlegs.
"Come on Brother. Let's get out of here." Someone said gently and lead me towards something. I had stopped crying but now I felt nothing else than pain.
The person that make me go forward took me to Toothless. When I looked into my dragons eyes I returned to reality a little bit. I could hear and see good again. I released Toothless and hugged him. He looked at me like if he asked what had happened. I looked back at him, trying to say that I would tell him later. He understood.

We was about to leave that cursed boat when I remembered something.
"Wait! Stormfly must still be on that boat. We can't leave her there. Astrid will kill me." I blurted out without thinking. Then I started to think again and became silent
"I...I meant..." I stammered
"We know Hiccup. Of course we'll get Stormfly. Me and Fishlegs will come with you." Heather said and Fishlegs nodded.
We went fast to the boat and search after Stormfly in the dungeons. When we found her and I looked up on her I remembered all the good times i had had with Astrid and the sorrow became too much. Tears filled my eyes. Stormfly looked at me as if she asked where Astrid was.
"She's gone girl. Astrid is gone." I said and cried as I hugged Stormfly.
"Let's get out of here." Fishlegs said and so we did.
When we flied away from the ship I stopped and looked back but not on the boat, on the ocean. I still cried. Somewhere in there she was, out of reach. I would never get to hug her or kiss her or laugh with her again. Heather flied up on my side.
"I know how you feel. It hurts for me too." She said also crying
"I can't even give her a proper funeral because of him." I said full of anger and sorrow.
"I know but don't hurt Viggo. It would make you just as bad as he is and Astrid wouldn't want that." She told me
"I know. She was so good-hearted. How will I live on without her?" I asked crying
"It will be hard but you'll make it."
"No I won't." I told her harshly and flew back to the edge.