A world without you

Chapter 28 - Hiccup's POV

I turned around and saw her. She was so different but still just the same. She had let out her hair and  was small and thin but when I looked her in the eyes they were just the same. My Astrid. I couldn't believe it and she looked at me like she thought the same thing.
"Valka. What is this? Am I hallucinating?" Astrid asked with a shaky voice
"No you're not." Mom said
"Then I must be dead." Astrid said panicked, she had tears in her eyes.
"You're not dead." I said and walked towards her. She looked at me terrified.
"But you can't be real." She shook her head and took a little step back.
"I am." I said despite that I felt the same way. I reached my hand out to her. Her hand shaked when she took mine and held it. She started to cry.
"You're here." She said and hugged me. I held her tight and cried as well
"You're alive."

I don't know how long we stood like that. We didn't say anything, we didn't need to. All I needed was to feel that she really was alive and I did. We both cried but didn't care. I think everyone cried.
I had been away from her for so long. We both had been hurting for a almost a year. Finally I held her in my arms again.
When we  stopped  I still held her hand. I never wanted to let go of her again.
Heather came and hugged Astrid and after her came the others. Mom came to us with a still worried face.
"Astrid, you're bleeding. Let me help you." She said. I hadn't noticed, stupid as I am. Astrid held a hand on her stomach but blood was coloring it red.
"okay." She nodded
"come here." Said mom and hugged her.
"I was really worried. Never do that again." Mom continued and hugged Astrid.
We all told our stories about the last months without each other.
"We were all lost without you." Heather said. Astrid leaned a little bit closer to me and I held her a little bit tighter.
When everyone else had fallen asleep Astrid and I sat and talked like we always had used to do. Until I couldn't wait to say it anymore.
"I'm sorry..." Then it all came out like a flood of feelings made into to fast speaking words.
"I'm sorry that I didn't go search for you. If I had maybe I had found you earlier. Maybe you would have not been so lonely. Maybe..." I blurted out
"Hiccup. I know you. Please don't blame yourself. It wasn't your fault." She looked at me with the I-better-listen-to-her-or-else look. She took my face in her hands and looked me straight into the eyes
"Do you hear me? It isn't your fault! Do you hear me Hiccup Haddock? do not blame yourself."  She said and I just looked at her.
"On one condition." I said
"what?"
"That you don't blame yourself either." I said. She just kissed me.
" I love you" I said
"I love you too" She answered and in that moment I was truly happy for the first time since she disappeared.