LUAR BUMI

twenty six

I don't understand you...

         I don't understand the way you always come with those butterflies, and the way you paint me with rainbow and making me sparkly like I am ready for my ballet performance. I don't understand the way you always show up right before I decided to let you go and how you're always making me fall all over again.

        I don't understand the way you always leave my texts on read and go for a day or so without contacting me but then suddenly you reply as if nothing happened. I don't understand you. You came and suddenly my life is a mess and when you left me, I've become a mess myself.

        And I don't understand you because if you really want me, then why the fuck are you acting like you only want me when your boredom strikes? Because if you really want me, why are you acting like you really want me but the only thing I got is just an endless pain?

...and you make me insane.

—Luar Bumi