LUAR BUMI

thirty five

Stop waiting for him. If he doesn't text you and left your text on read, leave him. If he keeps making you stay awake until two in the morning with tears on your cheeks, leave him.

If he keeps making excuses, leave him. If he only come to you whenever his boredom strikes, leave him. If he keeps making you second guessing about yourself, leave him. If he making you feel unworthy, unwanted, unhappy, you know what you gotta do. Leave. Him.

Sis, you deserve better. You are gold. You are burning fire; don't let him turn you into ashes. You are not his place to stop by. You are more than just a five minutes ciggarettes break.

But I love him. You said.

Yes, sis, duh. I know, and that is why you let him in at the first place. But, hey, what about yourself? Don't you need to love yourself too? Look at those puffy eyes, darling, he ain't worth your tears. Look at your beautiful face, your precious soul. You deserve so much more, my love.

But I believe he is gonna change. You said.

Yes, sis. But when? You've been hanging for almost a year and you're still waiting for him to change? You've been wasting your time for almost a year, pushing everyone away because you thought you have this relationship with him but what did he gave to you? Love? Happiness? Laughter?

No, darling.

He gave you an endless pain
and you need to stop torturing yourself by loving him that much
because, duh, sis, you deserve better.

— Luar Bumi