Randy||bxb||Roadtrip Oneshots

Little do you know

**TRIGGER WARNING: mentions physical abuse in an intime relationship, along with homophobic slurs/degrading language(verbal/physiological abuse), and sexual abuse. **

Not between randy however.

Relationship status: not together
Andy- Taken Rye- Single
:::17.23

More then a year in and no one knows how bad of a boyfriend I am, well Jax does. And he still loves me, I should show more gratitude. He tells me that I should love him better and I try. The tells me I'm lucky. But he's teaching me to be better towards him, sometimes I feel ashamed when I don't know. But he punishes me so then we're even. I know now that I shouldn't be sleeping in the flat with five other guys, I'm Jax's and that should be enough.

So right now I'm heading to his flat, it is a good fifteen-minute walk. As I'm about head out the door, leaving slightly early so I'm not disrespectful by being late, I hear Rye calling my name.

"Yes, Rye?" I say as he walks out of the kitchen, shirtless before I met Jax I wouldn't have thought twice about this. But now I had to make sure I didn't look down. I had to make sure we weren't too close. He had gotten fed up with us being so close, and I mean why wouldn't he. He had been putting up with it long enough. Jax should be my everything.

Rye walked up to me and I know he was to close so I took a step back to be respectful. That is what I need to get better at; being respectful. He is my boyfriend I need to listen.

"What's up with you lately? You're never here and when you are you are always by yourself."

"I'm so sorry, it's my fault I should be more active in the band. Please forgive me." I hope he doesn't hit me.

But Jax told me that I don't spend enough time with him, I should be better. I should go now so I can be a better boyfriend, not someone who is annoying to be around.

"Fovvs, I'm not mad at you. I'm just checking up on you, I feel like we haven't spoken too much lately. How are you feeling?" He looked genuinely worried.

I smile weakly at him, "thank you so much. I'm very grateful for that. And I'm good, you don't have to check up on me, don't let me burden you."

"What are you doing Fovvs? It's like you're taking responsibility for everything, even when you're not at fault. Is it something with Jax?"

"Jax? No, we're great, I'm happy he puts up with me. Talking of him, I better go I should be there in thirty-two minutes, I don't want to be late." I say opening the door.

"Puts up with you? Andy, are you sure you want too? You don't look too convinced." He asks taking a couple steps towards me, I take a couple of steps outside keeping my distance.

"Want too? I said I would," I say. "Bye Rye, see you at the studio tomorrow." I smile before waving and closing the door.

I make my way quickly to his flat. This time I knew that six o'clock really meant five minutes before. I'm so stupid I should have known that.

When Rye said it didn't look like I wanted to, it triggered something in me. Want to, I hadn't really thought about that in a while. What do I want? Well, I wanted to be better for my boyfriend, right. I should be perfect tonight, respectful and be what I should be.

I finally got there and knocked twice on the door, I didn't knock again. Knowing that would be unnecessary.

I feel tired but I shouldn't complain, I still need to get in shape(AN: no he doesn't, Fovvs is perfect). Hope I can make up for it, I should have brought a gift.