Randy||bxb||Roadtrip Oneshots

Deep Breaths

Relationship status: almost married
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Rye's POV.
I took a deep breath and looked up into his eyes. I was still nervous until I did, the look he gave me just calmed me down immediately. Like no one else could. I hated talking in front of people but standing here, gazing into his eyes I could practically hear his voice calming me after all these years. I going to be alright. Actually better, I was going to be married.

Sparkling blue eyes, that beaming smile, and bright skin - I could tell that the makeup had been applied with a lot of precision - different, yet similar to when we were alone. I liked this done up version of Andy, accentuating all his features but I loved Andy when we were all alone without makeup.

After he just woke up, his bright eyes half closed and blond hair that changed shape as it pleased. Sometimes he had dark circles under his eyes after staying up late for a couple days. Even then, he was still the most breathtaking person who had ever graced the earth with their presence. Maybe even more so.

He stood there in front of me now, calm as ever. This calm effecting me too. Now I no longer thought of the people around us, but only him. His hands in mine as I yet again tried to gather myself enough to speak.

"Andy, as I stand here today I just want you to know that I love you. I know I have told you a million times and I hope I can do it billions more."

I let these words hang in the air as I prepared to speak again, this time calmer. There was no stress. Just like Andy always said. Andy. Constantly there to calm me down and reassure me that I was indeed stressing over nothing, but that, that too was alright. Telling me to take deep breaths and worry about it later. Even when it was especially important, just deep breaths, we'll do that later. He could calm me like no one else.

"We have known each other for so long now and, and we're ever-growing and ever-changing. I'm different since we met, and that has a lot to do with you."

I thought about all the times we had laughed together. Not all our memories were happy of course, but they were all so unique. He had changed me so much, I was so much better off just from knowing him. Getting to love him was the best part of my life, and I think that's what I have been waiting for all my life.

Everything I had been brought through to get to this point was worth it because it brought me here to him.

"Before I met you I didn't believe in destiny, and I know how sappy that sounds, but it's true. I thought we were all just souls wandering around in hope for a miracle to happen. But if that's true, then that was one in a billion miracle because someone like you doesn't just drop by," I sighed contently before continuing."Before you, I hated everything the world put me through, but I see now how it got me here to you; it was worth it. It was so worth it, Andy."

His watering eyes were focused on mine taking in all the words that were slipping out, this was not what I had rehearsed. Yet that didn't matter. Andy was perfect, well for me, and everything I could ever say about him would be too. Before coming up here I had been so worried about messing up and saying the wrong thing, but I couldn't anymore. I just wanted him to know that I loved him. With every last part of him and I wanted him to know.

When This thought came to me, I started talking again.

"I want you to know that I love you, every part of you. When you've been up for too long working on songs or when you just wake up. You look so amazing right now, but I still think I prefer you when you're just about to get up. The smile you give me every morning is all I need to get up for my day, no matter what's waiting. Because I know that that same smile will be there when we both come home again."

Tears were slipping down both our faces, smiling wider than ever I continued.

"Finding you was a miracle, getting to keep you and love you was heaven on earth. I promise to love you for as long as you let me. Since that is what I was meant to do. Even when it's hard, I promise to love you more than anything."

I clutched his hand before I said my final sentence up here. His hands were so warm, like always even in this church that definitely wasn't. Standing up here in my white tux that matched his, that's all I knew. Him. Andy.

I couldn't help myself, I brought his hand up to my lips pressing them gently to his soft skin. Our eyes still locked together.

"Andy that's all I know, I was made for loving you."

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Jo xx