Broken Child

Andy Winter

How cruel life could be

War

Hunger

Poverty

Corruption

What are we living for . . .

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''.....he is going to teach you, um like iuh... He's going to show you how to write and read and speak good ? Um he is my friend Andy I know him and he is nice.. Ju..Just like me.. Nice.. Yeah.. Okay ?''
I tried my best to speak to him so that he understands while he is staring at me with his big eyes

He is now comfortable around me and that's a great progress, he sometimes try to speak without me speaking to him but it goes out as a whisper but when I tell him to repeat he just looks down, I take as a progress as well..

'' nn..nice ?'' he whispered softly looking at me

I look back at him and smile and nodd

'' yes Andy, you'll get better, and you'll learn alot okay ''

And with that I Brough the teacher to him, but Andy was scared to stay alone with him so I convinced him to but we left the to his room open so that ' he could run if the new man is like bad man'
In andy's head every other person is like 'the bad man' and the last name came when I convinced Andy to stop calling the ass of Man who raised him 'master' I kept telling him he is bad and what he did was bad and that happened when Andy tried offering himself to me....

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We were in the living room infront if the TV when I felt Andy looking at me
I turned to him to ask him what's wrong but then he spoke...

'' um... Y..you.. No.. Fu'ck.. This... Mas... Alex ?''

I looked at him not really getting what he was saying or trying to ignore the feeling to puke

'' w..what ? What... What do you mean ?"

He looked down.. Seemed lost in his head, trying to explain to me what he is trying to say, he then went to his knees and brought his hands to my crotch... I froze for a moment than grabbed his wrists forcefully
''WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING ? "and I stood up and brought him up to he feet, then a whole wave of sorry's and sobs was heard... I snaped out of my head and looked at the small skinny, defenseless boy infront of me, crying and sobbing...
I took a deep breath and sat back down leading him next to me then let go of his wrists...

'' hey.. Uhh listen.. Uuh stop... Stop crying listen to me... ''

His sobs died but he was still trembling scared
'' why did you do that huh ?"
There was silent then he tried

'' try... B..be... Good... Bb..boy... For... You ''

I couldn't believe what he said

'' please... This... Be...uhuh... Be... Good... This... Do.. All good... Uhh... Master say .. Un no.. Old Master... Say... This... Good... Good... fu'ck.. . Good pleasing.. Sex....t..''

''STOP.... Stop right now... God damn It stop it '' I yelled and he flinched back and put both his hands to cover his mouth... I was so angry I grabbed him by his shoulders and made him look at me
'' do. You want me to fu'ck you ? "
He froze then nodd hesitating
''i... no..want... Only Master... Want ''

'' I'm talking about what you want... Look at Me.... Tell me.. Do you want me to fu'ck you ? Do you ''

'' if master... Wan...''

''DO. YOU. WANT ME TO FU'CK YOU '' I yelled with all I had, I was angry and frustrated I was boiling
He was now trembling violently, eyes wide open, tears all down hid cheeks
He then looked down, few tears falling, he shook his head with a small whisper

''no''

And with that simple 'no' he broke into loud sobs

'' no ''

That simple 'no' that he was never aloud to say

''no''

I took a deep shaking breath and held him to my chest hugging him tightly while he was crying...

When hé calmed à little I explained explained to him everything

'' listen Andy... What that man uh old master did to you is wrong.... Bad it's bad he shouldn't do that it's a terrible thing to do it's called rape Andy and it's terrible .. Do you...um do you understand Andy ?"

He sniffed whipping his nose with the sleeve of his shirt

'' I....i.is... Bad ?"

'' no not you.... Not you... Hé is bad. He is a bad man ''

He gasped, looked at me shocked and said
'' old...m..aster... bad ?"
Oh how I wanted to erase his terrible past from his head and replace it with love and hope and safety

'' yes Andy... Hé is à bad man and not you... No ... You are just a child. You did nothing wrong. You were just with the wrong people ''

'' so... You.. No... Fu'ck. I. Like... Bad man fu'ck I ? You.. No... Bad ? ''

I sigh and put my hand in his head brushing his hair with my fingers
'' could you not say that word.. Hum it's a bad word okay ''

'' word ? What "
I smiled sadly at his innocence

'' the word ' fu'ck ' is a bad word, don't say it okay ''

He put his hands to cover his mouth

'' no say... No more ''

'' and no Andy I won't hurt you ever okay '' I hug him then he said

'' you... N..Nice... You hand...(he pointed to where my hand was on his head brushing his hair) you... Hand here... Nice ''

I smiled softly kissing the top of his head...

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'' so um... Mister... ? '' I asked the teacher
'' Crow.... ''
'' Crowley... yeah sorry um there's alot in my head... so mister Crowley how is he doing ? "

'' he is getting alot better actually, and he is not as scared as he was before, his writing is getting better so as his speech I 'm sure you've noticed, and reading as well, I suggest you read with him, that motivates him because I noticed he is kinda insecure and he put himself down thinking he is stupid, witch you should inform his therapist about, but he is doing great, such a brave kid..''

'' yeah I'll make sure to tell her thank you so much for your help, have a nice day ''

I walke up to my room and I was met with the excited Andy with a notebook in his hand and a big smile on his face

'' look... Andy write... Name... Right ''
He shoved the notebook to my face and I saw he wrote his name right

'' that's great Andy.. You did great job.. I pet his head since he likes it so much he was just needed someone to be proud of him
'' and how do you read that Andy ''

He looked at his writing and said with a big smile

'' it.. Is.... Andy Winter ''

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