Broken Child

unwanted

His room was Exactly as he left it , his bed is still messy , his books are still in their place , so as his papers , notebooks . he can't deny the fact that he missed this place so much .
He openes the Windows to let some fresh air in the room and made his bed and sat watching his room . it's like he hasn't been there for years . he still remembers the first time he came here . he still feels mister Thomas's presence even tho he was out most of the times. But he was there . he still remembers the day he told him that he can call him 'father' , he smiled at himself remeberimg it , he was beyond happy that day.
He was ripped out of his thoughts when he felt Alex sitting next to him , smiling at him
"What are you thinking about ?" Alex asked
Andy looked at him . happy to see that smile in Alex's face , he didn't see it for a while and he actually missed it .
"I'm...h..happy "
Alex felt like daggers are being put inside his chest .'  he is happy '
How could he be happy, he thought . he was thrown out . abused and raped and he tried to kill himself . and he is happy just because he is back home .
Alex cant help but hate himself even more because all that happens was because of him . he was blinded by anger and grief . he never tried talking to Andy . he never thought about how Thomas's death would effect him . he left him alone . he abandoned him. And he forced him to leave the house and go to will's even tho he begged him not to take him there .he never thought about why Andy redused to go to Will's . he never gave him a chance to speak the day he was called by the police to take him . he never asked about the bruises that decorated his skin . and above all that . he said some awful things that he never thought for a moment that he would say them.
"You are .... Happy ?" he said
Andy just nodd noticing Alex's sad expression
"After everything happend to you ? After everything I did and said to you ? You got raped again after I promised you that I would never let any one touch you like that . and here you are happy that I brought you back home after I kicked you out ?"
Andy just lookes at his fingers not finding anything to say. Its true. All those things happened but he never balmed him , not even once , he always thought that he deserves it . that he deserves all kind of pain. That's what's been carved in his head since he was a toddler .his head was like a graveyard . all kind of memories where burried there . they might be burried but they are still there never forgotten . and they keep coming back like flashbacks and nightmares . to remind him of who he is . and where he came from . that's why he never speaks up .he never complains or voice his needs . because he knows . deep down he knows that he doesn't deserve any kindness. Because he is nothing but a slave . a sex slave for his own father .
"You should hate me . you should yell at me . tell me that I was selfish . I am a terrible person . I let you down I broke my promises I failed you "Alex was by then roaming the room and yelling . Andy was following his every step . he made him angry this fast. He just got home and he already made him angry. He thought.
"I..uh I am..so..sorry...I do not ...hate You... No...Alex...I uh...Alex it was my ..fault...mister thomas dead.uh no..died..um... I do not hate you Alex..I love You please do..not..be mad please I ...love you..please" Andy's tears were running down like rivers sobbing and begging on his knees "please dont be mad " be whispered in a very weak and shaking voice
Alex ran to him and hugged him
"I'm not mad at you Andy . I'm mad at my self for hurting you . I'm so sorry please frogive me Andy . "
Andy nodd hurriedly making the tears fall faster "no..no...I...I'm okay ...I am not ...mad..I am okay .. I don't want you to be... Mad or sad please... I lo-love ....you "
Alex smiled at how innocent the boy is "I'm not mad Andy it's okay...it's okay" he hugged him tight and cringed at how he can feel his bones . "you are so skinny Andy . how about I let you relax a bit while I go prepare dinner yeah ?"
Andy just nods

While Alex was preparing the table Tony entered the house carying a few vegetables .he has been shopping for him for a while now. But he didn't expect to find the once empty kitchen to be clean and back to life
"Well Well Alex... You prepared dinner and I'm not invited.." Tony faked a pout "you have a girlfriend or something man where is she ?" Tony said when he noticed two bowls on the table.
Alex just smiled and shook his head "there's no girlfriend Tony. It's just that.... Andy is back home "
Tony's smile fell "what do you mean ?"
"I'm being clear Tony. I brought him back home"
Tony felt anger rise up and his face turned red
"Why? I thought you were over him . why did bring him back Alex. Did you forget what he did ? Thomas is dead because of him...."
And he was cut when Alex hit his hands on the table " I don't want to hear any of this Tony. And if you don't want him around than just leave okay.."
The air on the kitchen was toxicating especially when Andy joined them . he could feel Tony staring at him . and he felt uncomfortable. He felt unwanted

Like truly unwanted..

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