Broken Child

past

"You...you are not gonna s-stop talking to me .. r-right Jolly?" Andy whispered in a desperate voice,  afraid of being tossed out again. But this time , by Jolly.
He approached jolly and looked at him, he could see the hurt in his eyes, he never saw jolly like this before.
"Please, Jolly.. I.. I.. uh.. I'm alone... and .. you.. you.. are my friend right ?"
Little did he know that jolly was dying to be more than just a friend.
"I.. will be that... um boyfriend? If you want.. I'll be ... anything you want me to be..  just don't stop talking to me, jolly pl..please" his voice broke at the end of his sentence, he was terrified of ending up alone again, having no one to go to, no one to talk to, so he is ready to do anything,  to be anything jolly wanted him be.

"What are you saying Andy? I.. just... I fucking just assaulted you ? Doesn't that bother you Andy? And you just let me .. you didnt even try to stop me . You were scared to death I could feel it. And ... and the way you are talking to me, like ... like I just want to fu.. to sleep with you, who do you think I am huh...you think I'm like Will?" Andy froze at the mention of Will.
"I'm Jolly, the one who loves you, I love you.. for you.. you think I don't know about the scares on your body? About the words carved in you ? I know it all. I know what you been through, I know what your father did to you , what his friends did to you, the way they treated you. I saw it all, all the pictures,  the vid..." he said without thinking, he was just so desperately wanting andy to understand him.
Andy's eyes widened, how did he know all these things, what pictures os he talking about.
"The thing is, Andy I still love you, I dont care about your past, i don't think you are dirty at all , none of it was your fault.."
Andy took a step back, shaking "wh-what pictures?.. h-how do you... you.. don't know... anything..."
"I know enough,  Andy that's not the point, its..."
"What... what pictures... wh-whats in the pictures , please tell me ?"
Jolly looked at Andy regretting ever bringing up the pictures, he was so desperate he didn't know what he was saying, and now seeing Andy shaking,  crying and scared in front of him wasn't in his plan.
"Alex.. he uh.. I forced him.. to .. i wanted to know you, but you refused to talk about anything remember? And I was looking for ways to help you, I forced him to tell me everything about you Andy,  and he did, he told me how he found you, he then .. he showed me pictures and videos he been receiving ever since he got you, he.... Andy.." jolly didn't know what do to anymore,  he tried reaching Andy to whip away his tears but the smaller flinched away from him " what's..in them ?" Andy whispered.
A lot,  jolly wanted to say but he just couldn't he shook his head "Andy please,  it doesn't matter... " he tried reaching him again but this time Andy slapped away his hands .
"W-wh-What's in ... in them ?" He voice was barley heard.
Jolly sighed and closed his eyes trying to remove the things he saw in those videos "a lot, the abuse... the.. the rape , the torture...I'm sorry angel,  but I I promise I will make him pay for what he did to you, Andy.. andy.. look at me " he forcefully grabbed him from both his shoulders to make him face him , and he bent down to be his level
" I promise you , I'll fucking burn him, and his friends, and every single asshole who ever touched you..."
Andy closed both his eyes so us his ears with both his hands, " stop... please stop.... stop t-talking... please " he quickly freed himself from Jolly's grab, his hand clasped in his mouth,and went running to the bathroom, he ended up throwing up his guts. 

He was naked, on his knees, the metal collar choking him, he was desperate for some air,  some water.
Master took away the blindfold and grabbed a fist of his dirty hair to make his head shot back. But he knew better than to look at master's eyes,  he learned it the hard way.
Master took out his phone and started taking pictures and smirking,  the boy clueless of what was going on, clueless that master was taking pics of his work, his masterpiece, he admired his work just like a painter admiring his painting,  so proud, so joyful.
Blue,red, green, yellow and purple, those are the colors he loved seeing on his masterpiece, so as tears,  sweat and blood. Dirty words, lashes, burns and cuts.
"You, my boy, have no idea how much these pics will get me, just by selling one of these... tsk,  look at you, just like I wanted you to be , just like so many want you to be, so they can fill their desire by watching you,like this , look " he the  forced the naked skeleton to look at the pics on his phone. 
The boy didn't know anything by then, he had no idea what was going on, he just saw the pics and saw the boy he was.
...

He remembers the way he looked like when that man showed him the pictures... he threw up more, just thinking that Andy,  and Jolly saw him like that. So ... weak, vulnerable , naked , clueless and dirty. They saw him there in that dark basement. Getting raped, and used like a slut. Like a doll.
Jolly ran his hand up and down Andy's back,  to comfort him, to make him know that he is not alone.
"I..... w..want ..go home..." he said
"You are home Andy.. please Andy look at me " jolly whispered back.
He shook his head " no... my.. my appartment.. please "
"Look at me Andy " jolly tried to make him look up but Andy was backing away from him, he was ashamed,  he couldnt look up, he wont look up.
His past will for eve hunt him, will never leave him alone..
He had a little, he had a little bit of hope,  hope that life might give him another chance. And will have mercy on him, he hoped That one day he will move on and let go of his messed up memories.
He hoped that one night he'd sleep without waking up shaking and out of breath because of a horrifying nightmare.
He just hoped to live like a normal person, but he will never be normal
He will never be free.
He will always be a slave.
A slsve To his own mind.

To his own past.

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Hello everyone hope you all doing okay and safe .

I just finished this chapter.

It was so hard for me to write it . I got emotional with every line .

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