Broken Child

punishement

Both Alex and Andy were sitting on the floor at the door of Alex's bedroom . none of then had the force to get up .
Andy was shocked at what Alex said . how did he know . did Will tell him .
Why would he tell him . the truth is that Andy didn't t understand anything . the only thing he did was slid down next to Alex when he saw him kneeling in front of him .
Many thoughts were on his mind . Alex was so strong and free why would he kneel in front of a weak worthless slave as himself. He thought. "D-don't pl-please" was what he said while kneeling next to him. "You are...h-hurt please go..to the doctor please al-Alex please"
Alex was busy with begging for forgiveness to notice the discomfort on Andy's face
"He hurt you so bad Andy , didn't he ? And I let that happen I even gave you to him" Alex said sighing " don't you hate me for that? That night .. You begged me not to send you to Will .. You were crying .. You knew what was waiting for you ..you knew he will hurt you  . right Andy  ?  You knew ? " he continued between sobs "tell me what he did to you . when was the first time he hurt you ? What did he do to you when you were at his house please Andy I need. .I ..I need to know"

Andy lowered his gaze to the floor and cringed at the memories and the pain he went through and even still going through . he remembers is all . he is even living it every night while asleep and it will never go away . he took a deep breath and sighed
"H..he was .. Always giving.. Me weird looks ... That scared me .. Then one day he .. Came ...in my room..he.. Had..this look...I .I was so ..scared.. "
Andy sniffed and wipped his tears with the back of his hand while Alex was looking through him . noticing how hurt he is .. Blaming himself for letting all this happen
"He said .. That ...you told..him about me.. About who..who I am ..about my..past ..he laughed at me..said I..  He. said he .. Didnt think . that ...I was slu-slut." Andy was sobbing and crying his heart out making him find difficulty to speak correctly . this always happen to him.. When he is scared, stressed or having a panic attack or a mental breakdown he would lose the words and sometimes even go back to the way he used to talk when he was young .. When he didnt have enough vocabulary where he would just throw random words here and there "he hurt me .. B..bad Alex..I did not tell you ...coz he is yours..your cousin.. You was ..no ..were...you were happy when he came...I never want to see ...You sad or .not .. Happy.. please..don't cry...don't" he said while wipping the  tears from Alex's face ..
"I'm just angry at my self for all of this.. I'm tired I swear I...don't know what to do you want me to do huh.. What should I do so that you can forgive me .. Tell me I will do anything" he begged grabbing Andy's boney hands kissing them and crying over them

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"Jolly..Jolly easy you don't want to kill the man now .easy" Matt said holding jolly
"He deserves the worst punishment for what he did to the boy Matt and you know it .. You know how much I hate people like these .. Fucking pedophile .." jolly said kicking over and over the old bar owner who took advantage of a young broken boy and used him . Jolly had him and the others who raped him that night .. When jolly puts something in his head he do it .. No matter how hard to get it but he gets it .. He has a lot of professional people who work for him and they can get him any information he wants or any person he wants ..

"Jolly .. I understand you .. But this is not what we do .. We dont kill them . we make their lives a living hell . if you kill them now , than you are sparing them from living miserably .. Just do what you usually do huh ... And we'll see how they'll touch any other person again "
Jolly sighed and wipped his forhead from sweat " okay fine .. Give me the knife and leave Matt "
"P..p...please No stop ..stop ... Please I beg to you...no ..no what are you trying to do please "
Jolly kicked the man's face to shut him up "shut the fuck up you filthy animal... Did you stop using this filth of yours when you were Fucking a kid ? Guess not ... so shut the fuck up "
He wipped the knife. and put on his gloves.. And kneeled to the man's level "you know if I had enough power.. I would make rapists and pedophiles like you walk naked on the street with their cut off dick .. So that everyone would  know what you are and what you did ..now .. Sadly ..." he smirked and continued "since I don't have enough power... I can't make you walk naked on the street.... but ....I can cut off your filthy member so you can never ever use it again .."
All of their eyes went wide while they kept begging for forgiveness that they will never have
"Please ...please no no nooo"

And then all was heard was screaming and jolly's hysterical  laughs...

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Andy watched Alex sleeping to make sure he wont need anything . he felt so bad for causing this . for hurting Alex like this . all he ever wants is to make Alex happy and comfortable but he is only causing him pain and suffering
.why cant he do anything right
Why cant he just disappear from his life . he somehow regret coming back with Alex . he wish he was dead already . why is he even alive . he doesn't deserve to live . he doesn't deserve to be anywhere near Alex .
He wishes he can be better and be good for Alex .
Maybe then Alex will be happy

Maybe then Alex will love him...