Broken Child

what am I to you ?

"I wish .... I wish I never saw you that night .. I wish I never took you in that night "

...

Oh how empty the house was .. It was so scary how dark it became .
Alex spent his days out drinking and he'd come back home drunk .. And Andy was at home all day , preparing dinner for Alex that it was never eaten..

Andy nocked quietly on Alex's door
"D-dinner I-is ready a-Alex "

There was no respond
He opened the door and got in to find Alex laying on his bed with a bottle of wine in his hand .. And empty bottles thrown here and there

"I .. I m-made you d-di-dinner Alex "

"I'm not hungry , get out "

"B-but you...."

"I said get the fuck out Andy"

And went out hurriedly scared of angering him more he went down stairs and did the dishes and put the food on the fridge maybe Alex will eat it later .. He thought

While doing the dishes he heard thé door and went to open to find Tony

Tony looked at him up and down making him uncomfortable
"Where is Alex ?"

Andy was looking down the whole time Tony was staring at him

"He .. He he... Is up in h-his room"

"Did he eat ?"

Andy shook his head 'no'

"Why? Why dont you be useful and prepare some food for him .. You fucking useless bitch"

That hurt so bad .. So bad

"B-but I did..prepa..."

"Why dont you just leave huh ? Nobody wants you here .. Ever since you came here and everything went down on hell.. I told him.. God I did tell him that you are nothing but a trouble to him .."
Andy cowered and hugged himself he felt so small infront of Tony .. He was so scared .. He felt like crying ... He felt the lamp on his throat getting bigger and bigger ..

Tony went up to find his best friend drwoning again .. He took the bottle off his hands and threw it
"Get up ...up Alex get the fuck up.. Im not letting this happen again you hear me "

"Leave me alone Tony "

"No get up we are going out .. You need some fresh air come on "
Tony helped his best friend to get dressed and he guided him out side,
He found Andy standing at Alex's bedroom door
"Instead of standing here and being useless go and clean his room .. I'm taking him out "
Andy just nod still looking down at his feet..
He made the bed and put on new blankets , he threw all the empty bottles and broken glass on the trash amd cleaned the floor and the batbroom while crying the whole time....

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"Alex get a hold on yourself please look I got us planed on moday's plane to New York , you need some fresh air .. You need to change a bit .. We'll go and.. I dont know you'll have some time alone away from all of this okay ?" Tony said trying hard to get his friend out this situation.. He knew exactly what will happen if he just lets him struggling alone .
He loved his best friend amd he'd do anything to help him
"What about Andy ? He'll stay alone ?" Alex said and brushed his hair with his hands .. He knew he needs this .. Deep down he os afraid of drwoning again
"You need to worry about your self .. "

"Yeah Tony but I cant leave him alone at home "

"Damn it Alex just ... I dont know just .. Why dont you take him to will's.. He'll take care of him while you are gone .. Think about yourself just for once Alex ..okay ?"

Alex sighed and called will to informe him .. Having no idea what kind of hell he is throwing Andy in ....

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Andy was sitting at the stairs when Alex came amd went directly to his room .. Minutes later he heard him coming back and sitting next to him
" thank you for cleaning my room.. You didn't have to " alex said ever so quietly .. He always felt some kind of weakness when he is with Andy.
Andy smiled weakly with teary red eyes ... He took one of Alex's hand and kissed it gently and whispered
"Its o-okay"
Alex smiled and hugged him and kissed his head .. Andy sniffed his sent oh how much he missed him .. How much he missed his hugs
He really wanted to say it 'i miss you ' its so simple but he just didn't have enough power to say it . he wanted to say that he is sorry .. I wanted to say that he needs him .. He wanted to say 'I'm hurt' he wanted to say 'will is raping me '.... But he just couldn't,  So he just let his tears fall .. And fall ... And fall .

"I'm going to New York tomorrow night with Tony .. I want you to pack you'll be staying with Will "

Andy felt his heart beating ... He needed to throw up .. He looked up at Alex with wide teary eyes
"W-w-what?"

Alex cant do this to him right?.. . he cant throw him like this right ?..
He cant simply give him to the devil right?...

"Will is going to take care of you while im in new York so go pack okay "

"C-c-can I  c-come with y-you ?pl-please" Andy grabbed despretly at Alex's arm .. Hoping that this is just a dream ... Just a dream

"No Andy .. I need sometime alone .. And you are going to stay with Will .. So go pack .. Don't make me repeat myself " alex yelled back and stood up with Andy following him still grabbing his arm crying despretly .. He then knelt down and kissed his foot begging him 'please'
"Uhuhh pl-please. .. Alex pl-plea-please Alex please I .. I D-dont want t-to go to w-will pl-please "

Alex sighed and pushed him off him angrily
"AND SINCE WEHN YOU HAVE A SAY IN THE MATTER ... YOU ALWAYS FUCKING FOLLOW EVERY WORD I SAY . LIKE A FUCKING DOG ... "
He then looked down at Andy's eyes and realized what he did .. He put  him up to stand and apologized
"Im sorry ... Andy I'm sorry I just..oh God. I'm so sorry ...just Go pack yeah ? I need some time alone.. Try to understand .."

"B-but t-Tony is g-going with y-you "

"TONY IS MY FUCKING BEST FRIEND ANDY "

Andy looked down at his feet and whispered back to him

"What ..what ab-about m-me ? W-what am-I t-to you ?"