Broken Child

a new chance

Taking Andy out of the house is amazing and heart breaking at the same time,  he is amazed with everything he sees, the sky, the trees, the kids playing around and running, the smile on his face was all I wanted to see, that little sparkle in his eyes was beautiful shining like a shining star in the middle of the night...

It's all like a new life to him, like a new world, and I was so ready to give him that, to give him the life he've been deprived of,
I'll make him smile,  laugh I'll help him heal I'll do all I can to let him live..

But of course there are still these nightmares that hunt him,  memories of the abuse that are still carved in him, the scars will always be a cruel reminder, oh how he ignore looking at the mirror, how he hardly talk about himself as " I " like he is scared to say it, and how he always look at the floor and bow.. But I'm sure it will change sooner or later, little by little he'll be better, he'll learn freedom, and I'm looking forward to seeing him strong and free and healthy

...

'' Alex come here ''
I heard dad yell at me when I went down stairs I found him at the front door talking to someone

'' what is I....'' once I saw who it is I felt my blood boil inside of me but I soon calmed remembered that my father doesn't know the whole story, it was the guy that gave me Andy

'' I'll take it from here dad ''

'' who is he ''

'' he is... Uuh an old friend.... I'll be back ''
I stepped out and closed the door looking at the guy with hateful glares

'' so mate did you enjoy the bitch, did it give you good fucks coz if not I'll have to punish it or it's master will punish it '' I glare at him as speaks and laugh showing his rotting yellow teeth

'' what do you want '' I try harder to stay calm,  but inside I want to take his heart out

'' well I brought your money and I need the whore back,  you know that bitch has alot of work to do, alot of people to serve, you know what I mean,  plus,  his owner want him back again ''

'' what do you mean 'owner' '' I'm trying to gather as much information as possible, to get to all the people who abused him..

''  he is our boss you know, and the boy is his bitch, let me tell you that he is really wanted,  he is obedient and does what he is told, he gets us a lot of money... '' he said with a dirty smirk on his face
I couldn't hear it any more, what kind of disgusting people could do this

'' come on man bring him and here is your money and if you ever wanted to have a good time with him here this cart just go to the address written and you'll have hell of a good time with your favorite toy ''

I took the cart, put it in my pocket then I suddenly grabed him by the coller of his shirt and slammed him hard with the wall

'' listen here you disgusting sick pedophile, if I ever see you again, I'll end you, do you hear me I'll end you ''
He pushed me away from him and said

'' what the hell is your problem dude, take your fucki'g money and give me my bitch ba...''

I punched his face before he could even finish his words I dragged him all the way out to the road and I can hear my dad yelling and following behind I'm sure he heard everything coz I was yelling

'' take you fucki'g money I don't want them,  and forget about the boy, you hear me, if I ever see you again I'll fucki'g end you I'LL END YOU '' giving him one last kick and turned back home. Looking at dad staring at me shocked, then he followed me back home... I'm gonna have to explain everything now.... Oh well

I gather my self and take a good breath I was so angry I was ready to commit a crime right there

'' what was that I heard,  and who is this guy, and what did he mean ? ''

I explained everything to him, I didn't have another choice,  he is looking at me with a dead expression on him face

'' you are trying to tell me that you... You.. Bought him ?  Huh ? Is that it Huh...  or you won him in gambling, you won a child ?''

What he said hurt like hell,  I never meant for it to happen,  I didn't want it to happen

'' it...it was an... Accident '' I said quietly,  I couldn't even find my voice to speak

'' an accident.. You say... Right...  An accident... you...uuh.... You accidentally went gambling again behind my back,  you accidentally won,  and you accidentally won a damn child and you accidentally lied to my face...right ?"

''Say something,  you usually go all crazy jumping at me arguing with me,  and now you just sit there huh ? ''

'' what do you want me to say,  yes... I've made a mistake, a huge one that I know, but can't you look at the good side of things, or you head is alway dark.  why you always blame me, ... Huh ? Can't you see that the boy is now safe, if I didn't go gambling, and If I didn't win, he would still be there,  abused, treated like a damn sex slave, raped and tortured... Can't you see that God wanted me to be there to save h... What's so funny '' he laughed at what I said

'' 'god' again Alex'' he approached me with a dead look on his face
'' your 'God ' Alex, took away my son '' he yelled

'' no dad,  your son took away his own life because we didn't take care of him,  because we were selfish, and we didn't listen to him, but now.... Now  God is giving us a chance to stop regretting, to learn from our mistake, God has given us a young boy who needs us and I'm not repeating the same mistake again....  Ever again...