Broken Child

New Life

''alright I thought through it Alex and I see through the way he speaks and the way he acts, he is constantly on the edge he is worried to do something wrong he is afraid that you get mad, he talks only about you and how he only wants to not make you mad at him,..''

I looked at Lisa his therapist and when I didn't say anything she continued

'' he is waiting for you to order him... to make him do something.. Make him do what his old 'master' used to make him do that's why he is Always waiting.. ''

'' what am I suppose to do, I mean how do we stop him from being worried and scared.. ''

'' well I've been thinking, and I kind of figured out something ''

She looked hesitated

'' well you told me that he doesn't want to sleep on th bed or a chair and that he is all the time kneeling, right ?''

''um y..yes? ''

She took a deep breath and said

'' well Alex I need you to order him to sleep on the bed to sit and eat with you at the table instead of eating on th floor, and also..... ''
My eyes widened at what she said

''Um... look Alex I know it hard but it's important okay... ''

I'm really nervous right now of What she is saying

''give him some rules, that's what he needs to function Alex, it's hard but it's the only thing he knows, he is scared because he does not have rules to follow, he is afraid to mess up and he doesn't know how he is suppose to act and to beha......''

''how the hell you want me to do the exact same thing they did to him giving him orders and rules, treat him like a slave again, I don't want that.. ''

''its the only way to get through him Alex,listen to me, I know what I'm saying I need you to order him the opposite of what they made him do, do you understand, just try okay, and tell him you will punish him..if he does something wrong .''

I laugh at her words '' no no you are completely insane ''

''i'm not telling you to wipe him or beat him... God Alex what I mean is, put him in time out, tell him to think about what he did wrong, or spank his hand or put your fist in his forehead and gently push...''

'' Alex we are going to try alright, and I'll be with you I'll be with him, we'll just try and see how he'll react.. Get it ?''

I really don't know, I don't want to put him through more stress and rules and shit, I just want him to open up, to be himself, but he doesn't even know himself..

''fine we'll see..''

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He is looking at me from where he kneels in the corner of the room I walk in and sit on his bed.. God these knees of his, must hurt so bad they are already bruised, I sigh

'' Andy.. Come here little one '' I pat the bed so that he comes and sits next to me, but of course, who am I kidding, he crawled and knelt at my feet.. God please help me be strong

'' Andy stand up ''

He did but a little hesitated at my stern voice,, I instantly regret it I take his small hand in mine

'' listen, Andy I want to give you some rules okay... ''
The moment I said 'rules' his eyes widened and he started shaking a bit and nodd

''okay here we go... Rule number one is that I want you to sleep on the bed.. Here.. '' I pointed to the bed, he looked confused he hesitantly said pointing to himself
'' th...this... Is... Sleep... Bed ?''

''yes Andy ''

''this... Is... All..allowed.. In bed ''

'' yes Andy..you are allowed to sit on the bed and You. Will. Sleep. In bed..here.. Okay ? Now come sit here next to me ''

He looked at the bed as if it's some kind of a monster that will devour him, then there was a small nodd and he approached the bed and sat down trying hard not to touch or take much place.. Poor kid

''now rule number two Andy... Is from now on you will eat at the table with me, you will sit in a chair and you will use your spoon and eat, just like a taught you, do you understand ?''

'' master... Eat with slave ?"
What he said broke my heart, how could anyone use a child like that

''no Andy, you Andy will eat with me Alex, there is no master and no slave okay ?"

He nodd but I'm sure he did it because he was scared to piss me off

'' okay little one,the next rule is.. That I 'm begging please stop kneeling and don't bow your head on the floor, I don't want to see you kneeling again your knees are hurt so bad, Andy okay ?"

''what.. To.. To do.....mast... Master ?

'' just sit like this, like you are now or lay, so that you rest your knees okay ''

'' yes... Mm.master''

'' and just call me Alex okay don't call me master do you understand ?

''mmmaster what..to..call..Master ''

'' Alex, call me Alex alright ''

He nodd

'' and Andy please use your voice, speak whenever you want to, say yes say no, just talk more okay... And if anything hurt you I want to tell me okay?''

He nodd

''voice Andy remember ?"

'' y..yes Master ''

I sigh

''its Alex, Andy Alex "

He put his hand to cover his mouth and then said ''i is... So.. Sorry maste.... No... A....Alex ''

''its okay but remember it okay ''

I really hope this works, I hope he gets better and open up
I just want him to know that he is safe, no one will ever hurt him again
I want to learn how to talk, and to love himself and how to be happy
I simply want to offer him a new life, a better life. ..

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