It's YOUR fault-(Cimorelli story)

Chapter 18- It happened

Lauren's POV

I lay in the bathtub, the water stinging my cuts. I stared at the ceiling my head and my eyes aching from all the crying. My face stung and my whole body was in pain but the pain I felt on the inside was just too much. I felt violated.

I began to scrub harder into my skin, knowing that he touched my body. My skin was red and bleeding in areas but I was still not satisfied. I hadn't realised I was sobbing uncontrollably whilst scrubbing myself until Lisa knocked at the door. She must've heard me. She said I'd been in there for half an hour already. But it didn't feel like that, I wanted to stay in there scrubbing for longer. I dreaded leaving the bathroom. I knew that meant facing Lisa. But I was so grateful the rest of my family weren't home, I could barely handle Lisa, never mind the rest.

I got out of the bathtub and wrapped a bathrobe around myself. I unlocked the bathroom door and headed towards our room.

Lisa's POV

Lauren was finally out of the bathroom and her red eyes met mine as she entered the room. She stood there awkwardly in her robe and then I realised she needed to change.

"Oh right" I said. On the way out I placed my hand on her shoulder but she quickly shrugged it off and snapped her head upwards, looking scared. I was so confused, I frowned then I just cleared my throat and left her to change.

Lauren's POV

I just wanted to sleep. I was so damn tired and I didn't feel well at all, probably from being in the rain for so long. But Lisa probably had so many questions and she deserved answers. I sighed heavily as I sat on the bed, now fully clothed. I wore a sweatshirt with sleeves so long they went over my hands. And the sweatpants I wore were baggy and comfy, not rubbing against my raw skin from the bath. I didn't want to wear my shorts or even a t-shirt. I just felt...

Exposed.

I went over to the door and opened it. As expected Lisa fell through because I knew she didn't leave the door for even a second. She quickly gathered herself and looked at me.

"Are you ready to talk?" she asked, her eyes full of love.

"Yeah" I whispered, going over to the bed to sit down. She followed suit and sat next to me, her legs hung off the bed and I brought my knees up to my face and hugged them.

"I-I don't know where to start" I choked out.

She put her hand on my knee, but again I flinched. Confusion was displayed on her face as she slowly brought her hand back to her lap.

"Well, that guy, Isaac he brought you here, do you remember that?" said Lisa. I nodded.                 

"Ok well I talked to him and he told me how he found you." she said. I just looked at my lap.

"Lauren you need to speak to me. You need to tell me how the hell you ended up lying in the woods, covered in cuts and bruises and shaking from the cold." she said angrily.

"Lisa I c-can't" I whispered, still staring at my hands in my lap.

"Ok well, I guess you could always explain yourself to Christina or Kath or Amy or Dani or-

"No stop" I cut her off ,"I'll tell you." My eyes met hers and they started to fill with tears as the horrid thoughts came back to me.

"Lisa, you can't tell anyone" I said sternly.

She rubbed her hand over her face, "Laur you know I can't-

"Promise me" I said, becoming desperate.

"Lauren,I don't know what you're going to tell me I can't prom-

I closed my eyes and cut her off again. "Please" I whispered.

I opened my eyes and watched her face soften. "Okay, I promise" she says. I looked back down at my fingers, playing with them.

"After Dani left yesterday, I-I followed her," I gulped "She was not with the right people. I just wanted to protect her, so I text her something to get her out of that situation and then I got really pissed at these people because I know what they're capable of." I hear Lisa sigh.

"Laur I told you not to mess with Dani's life, I knew something was bound to happen" she said. I stayed silent after this. I saved Dani, sure, but now what had I done to myself?

"Lauren," Lisa snapped me out of my thoughts and she gave me a look urging me to continue.

"Um, I knew the girl, Dani's so called friend. She was always bad. She got really angry and had 2 of her friends hold me down, she tried to force it down me." I said, emotionlessly.

"What do you mean? Force what?" Lisa looked confused and worried.

"Alcohol" I said. She gasped. "I didn't let her of course but that's how I got this bruise on my face and I tried to fight the boys off, I really did but they were to strong." At this point my face began to crumple and a lump formed in my throat but I pushed it down and carried on.

"She said th-that she'll l-leave Dani alone if I-I drunk it" I stuttered "So I did" I whispered.

Lisa moved closer to me on the bed and then tilted my head up, "Then what happened?" she asked.

"I can't remember. I remember the room spinning and me falling into the arms of the nicer boy, Kyle." I stopped. Should I tell her the rest? How would she react and would she really keep it to herself? I quickly looked away wiping a stray tear.

"Is that it?" she asked. I nodded my head.

"Laur look at me." she demanded. I did and instantly she knew something was up.

"You're lying" she simply said. "I promised I wouldn't tell remember so tell me what happened next."

"I-I don't know. I woke up in a d-different bed and h-he had no clothes and I-I didn't and it really hurt and I r-ran-" My semi-formed sentences were cut off by sobs erupting from my body. I glanced at Lisa's face and she sat there,silent tears trailing down her face. She looked at me.

"Y-you were raped" she whispered. My eyes shot open hearing those actual words made the situation all the more real. I shook my head quickly, not wanting to accept it.

"N-no, no" I whispered. Lisa moved closer placing a shaky hand on my shoulder. I roughly shrugged it off and stood up. "NO" I said louder.

"Lauren, YES it happened!" Lisa yelled, standing to face me, "It happened" she said her voice calmer. And that's when it hit me. Like a ton of bricks.

I was raped.

I completely broke down, Lisa caught me before I could hit the floor and embraced me. This time I didn't flinch, I just let myself drown into her warmth.

(A/N)

So sad! Comment pleeease.

xx<3