Tabula Rasa (Unlike Loki: Book Two)

Chapter 6

(Anna)

Whenever I get sad, my brain filled with memories of Loki, I go to his room.

It had taken me forever to get up the courage to do so, almost a year, in fact.

The first time the doors opened, I felt a great wave of sadness overcome me. Because the last time I had been in there, was when I gave myself to him.

It made me miss him so much more.

The room felt eerily quiet, dust on the furniture. The bed was exactly the way we left it, since I had asked for no one to enter his room. I remember slowly heading over to the bed and lightly sitting on it, crying my eyes out when I realized his smell was no longer in the sheets. When my crying lessened, I noticed the book on the nightstand. It was the same one I had read over and over again, the one he had read to me. I had picked up the book, touching the soft cover. That's when I found the folded piece of paper. I picked it up, unfolding the thick paper carefully.

I had to put it down the moment I realized that it was a letter from him. I threw it at the table, in shock and misery, wailing until I wore myself out and fell asleep on his bed.

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I went there now, heading straight for the bed and sat down. I picked up the letter and began reading it for the millionth time.

My dear Anna,

I hope someday you can forgive me. I have learned that if one of us dies, whilst our demon mothers are present, that the spell will break. I'm doing this for you, so that you can live the long life you deserve. I am not scared of dying, I know that now; because you will live. You will live and love and be happy. I will have it no other way. Do not forget me, Anna. But do move on. I will be gone and I know that you will be sad, angry even. But try to find love again. Please.

I love you very much, darling. I cannot say it enough. I love everything about you. Your strength, your wisdom, your kindness, your intellect, your determination, and your stubbornness. I love the way you always seem to blush when I look at you, but you never look away. I love the way your skin feels on my hands, the way your lips feel and mine. I love the magic that happens when our bodies are one. I love every tiny detail.

I am giving you everything, making you my successor. You will rise to the throne and become Queen of Asgard. I've already told Thor, and he will make sure to take care of you.

I will patiently be waiting for you, darling.

Take your time getting to Valhalla, my love.

With every bit of my heart, that was

warmed and set aflame by you,

Loki

I silently cry as I read the letter over and over, careful not to get it wet or to bend it.

I don't know if I can do this much longer.