To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Twelve

*Zayn's POV*

I wake up and I see that I'm in my old room. Well not old room, my room in my moms house. I look over and see that Liam isn't laying next to me anymore. I get up just as pain shoots through my body, making m groan and cry in pain. Doniya runs into my room and sits next to me.

"OMG Are you okay?!" I shake my head and groan. Why did my body hurt all of a sudden? I try to sit up but pain shoots through me again. She sits me on my bed and looks at me. "You need to relax Zayn. The doctor did say you need a lot of rest." But I don't want to rest, I want to get up.

I lay back down and sigh. I wonder how long this was going to take. "Where's Liam?" She wiggles her eyebrow and winks at me. What? What did she know? How does she know.

"You mean Liam your boytoy? He went to get your things and then your homework." I blush and look at my hands. I guess she figured it out. "Liam told us about you guys. Even though I knew it was going to happen all along." I shake my head and cover my face. Mom probably hates me now. My door opens and my mom comes is with things in her hands. Speaking of the devil.

"Hey there, how ya feeling?" I shrug and lay my head on my pillow. Ow, this headache came out of nowhere. I just want Liam to come back so we can cuddle... and maybe make-out? I don't know, don't judge me!

"Not good. Everything hurts and I have a huge headache now." She hands me some pills. The pain killers and ones I have never seen before. Why were they yellow? Where they like happy pills or something?

"Their your antidepression pills, Zayn. Now take them." God I hate these pills. I didn't even take them but I don't want to and never have. I'm not depressed, just... okay I'm depressed but I'm a human! Everyone gets depression once in awhile!

"They may cause you to get sleepy and act strange, but that's all. Its because your body isn't used to them." I smile and lay back doew after I take the pills. I see a male standing in the doorway, its my dad. "Can I talk to him for a second?" Mom and Doniya nod him and walk off. Thanks this is exactly what I wanted.

"Hey." Hey? Is that forreal all he has to say to me right now. I don't want to come off a prick at first so I will keep cool for now.

"Hi." He sits at the end of my bed and sighs. What does he want? "What do you need." I didn't make it sound mean, I really just wasn't in the mood to talk to him.

"I just want to see how your holding." He gives me a fake smile. I roll my eyes and turn my head. I can't even look at him. He didn't have the nerve to give his own kid blood and he didn't even come to see me in the hospital. I really have nothing to dicuss with him.

"I'm fine. You can leave now." He laughs and looks at me.

"Zayn, I want to have a conversation with you. I want to know what's going on in your live and how your... relationship... is working." I'm really going to slap him any second. Pain or not, he's really pissing me off.

"So now you want something to do with my life. Everyone wants something to do with me after I get hurt. This is fucking sicken. My life is fine and my 'relationship' is well. You may leave now." He sighs again.

"Zayn, please don't. You know I've always wanted something to do with you. I'm just always busy to really ask. I know your live isn't the best but that was uncalled for. You have plenty of people to talk to and you did something this stupid."

"OR ONCE WOULD YOU HEAR ME OUT! You never wanted anything to do with me! That's always your excuse! You're always to busy for your family! I'm not the only one who sees it, mom and the girls do too! I know what I did was stupid okay!? I DONT NEED YOU GOING AND REMINDING ME! I did it because people wouldn't listen to me! I did it because I was hurt and no one would listen! I did it because I hate my life and I wish it was over already! I just want to die okay?! ARE YOU HAPPY!? I'm telling you what you want to hear! I want to die Dad! I hate being on this Earth and I just want to bleed! Are you HAPPY! Because I'm sure happy! IM THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD!" I didn't know I started crying. I didn't even feel the pain when I shot up and yelled.