To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Sixty-Two

*Zayn's POV*

This was amazing and I loved the house! It was everything I could only hope and dream for, literally so perfect. Ugh Niall, I'm so glad you gave this up for us, but why would you give something so perfect and amazing away? I'd kill myself if I ever lost this place, its everything you've ever wanted and more. I think I said that already? Oh well, I just love it so much its making me speechless. I flop down on the couch and sigh, but in a good away, as I put my hands behind my head and stare at the ceiling. This day just coudn't get any better if that. I see Liam smile ass he walks over the the window and stare out at the sea. We got a great view of it also must I say. I see Liam frowning slightly in the window making me worried. I hope he's okay.

"What's wrong Li? I thought you were excited for this!" He then looks at me and smiles weakly as he looks back out the window.

"I am, so excited. Its just... I haven't been here in a whole 5 years. After me and Niall... you know, broke up, I decided not to come back here because of the memories we shared here. But I'm over it now, I swear. Its just... re-experiencing it again and the memories came and such. But I'm okay. I'm excited to share new memories with you." I cringe when he reminds me that Niall and him dated. Its not that I forgot they did, its just I want to. Knowing he had him first and everythinbg hurtmy heart, but we are all friends so it can't effect me that much. I gotta push it away.

I look out at the ocean view with him, loving every inch and mile of it. He grabs my hand and gives it a tight squeeze, which I gladly return. I know how hard that this must be with him, but I'm sure I can make him forget it, evden of it will be hard. I'll do it.

I run upstairs and open up my bag, looking for my swimming trunks in them. God Liam, where the hell did you put them? Once I find them, Liam stands in the door way with a confused look on his face. I smile as I kiss his lips quickly pullingb off my shirt and slowly pulling down my pants. I look back at Liam and give him a look. "Come on, get yours on. We're going for a dip!" He laughs as he goes to his bag to also look for his trunks. I slip off my clothes and pull on my trunks as I run over to my bag for my sandels and I ran down the stairs. I open up the glass screen door and runn down the balconey onto the white and warm sand. I smile and walk over to the water way.

I stand by the shore for awhile as Liam then walks behind me, smiling. I smile back as I stare at the water again. I forgot about my fear of water, no I'm not a hydrophobic, I just have a fear of deep waters and drowning. I was just so excited that I forgot all about it. And now I regret this choice I had made.

"Are you going in or what?" He laughs and walks into the ocean with no time to wait. He turns around, waves for me to follow him as I swallow hard and slowly walk into the water. I start to shake as I get deeper and deeper into the water. Its now up to my knees and I feel as I'm losing oxygen. Fuck I'm going to havea panic attack in thewater and drown. I slowly back up and stare at Liam with fear in my eyes.

"I can't. I can't do it." He srunches up his eyebrows and walks over to me.

"What?" I shake my head and swallow hard again looking out at the water.

"I'm hydrophobic Liam. Not as what you think it mean though. I'm scared of deep waters and drowning. Plus I can't swim so... yeah I can't do it. I'm a fucking pussy now." Liam laughs at me, picking me up as I wrap my legs around his waist, him not walking out into the water. I start to freak out but he won't let me go. "Liam what are you doing!? Liam stop, take me back!"

"Calm down, you act like I'm going to kill you. I'm not going to let you go, you're okay with me, alright?" I swallow hard once again and nod my head, letting him walk out farther into the open waters. Its to my waist now and his chest. I'm breathing hard and holding on for dear life, not wanting to fall or him let me go. He starts to pull me off of him and I'm dead now. I'm still and not breathing. My feet hit the bottom of the oceanand I scream attaching myself back to Liam. He laughs once again and pulls me off. "Stand Zayn, you're okay." I shake my head and bury my head into his chest. I can't do this.

"I can't Liam, I can't do this... I'm going to die. Get me out of here please!" He sighs and nods his head, carrying me bridel style out to the sand again. He puts me down as I try to catch my breath. Once I do I apologize to Liam as he laughs and warms his arm around my shoulder.

"Its alright Zayn, some fears are harder to get over than others. We'll possibly try another day, okay?" I nod my head but don't meet his eyes. I feel like a really fucking pussy right now when I was the one who suggested this. Ugh why would I do this to myself, Liam even? Fuck me. I feel a hand snake under my chin, making my look him dead in the eyes. Did I ever say how my I loved his deep chocolate colored eyes? There perfect.

"Its okay, take a chill babe. Let's just sit on the shore line then, yeah?" I nod my head as he takes my hand and leads me over to the shore. I stil, felt bad for what I had done, but it is what it is. He's the first done to get down on the sand, patting the spot next to me. I gladly take the spot, looking out to the scene in front of me. It was absolutly beautiful, almost compared to Liam. I smile at myself, thinking just how cheesy that had sounded. But hey, I'm deeply in love with this man so yeah, I don't care how bad that joke was.

I rest my head on his shoulder, taking in a deep breath from the salty yet crisp cool air. Liam then wraps his arm around mine, pulling me in closer to him. I smile as I reach over and grab his hand, squeezing it gently. He chuckles at me which does make me smile. I'm absoultly in love with his laugh, I could listen to it all day. That and Ed Sheeran singing. Both has anglic voices. And I'm being cheesy again... great. Is this the effect that he has on me? I guess so because I'm not a romantic or cheesy kind of guy, but I guess I am now. Thanks Liam.

He looks at me with his eyes glowing as the sun hit them ever so slightly, smiling with his perfect smile that he has. I smile back, leaning in and giving him a quick peck on his lips that I love ever so much. As he smiles with a goofy grin, he slowly leans back in and leaves his lips lingering on mine, not moving at all. These in fact were my favorite kisses that he gives of all time. There not to demanding yet it leaves you wanting more, and that's perfect. He doesn't push me and I don't push him... sometimes.

I pull away and kiss his cheek, leaving him there to blush. That's another thing that I can't help but to find very cute about him. He blushes all the time, never seeing those cheeks orginal color because there always rosy red. But its cute on him so it works out perfectly.

"Its getting dark out Zee, let's head inside." I whine as I lean my head into his chest, smiling but he can't see it.

"But I wanna see the sun set!" He laughs and pulls me up with him, walking back to the house. I smile and hold onto his hand tightly, making him yet again blush. What's up with this kid blushing at the small gestures? Its cute still so I don't mind.

"Can we watch it from the window? I wanna cuddle with you without people starting to give us weird looks." I nod my head and start skipping to the front door, leaving Liam behind me laughing as loud as he can. I run up the stairs and push the front door open, running over to the couch while.jumping ove it to see the sunset in time. Seconds later Liam joins me as well and wraps his arms around me, pulling me into his chest. I smile and cuddle into his arm, watching the sunset as I fall into a deep sleep for the next day to begin.

{The next day}
*Liam's POV*

"Wake up, wake up!" I stir around in bed because someone was jumping on it to wake me up. I move my leg and trip Zayn over, him falling as well laughing. Why is he such a morning person? I groan as he starts to pull on my arm, trying to sit me up. I laugh at him as I sit up, wiping away the sleep from my eyes.

"I'm up, I'm up!"

"Yay! Now its time to start the day!"

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IM SORRY! I know this took me forever to update. I've just been out of the blue latly and schools really catching up to me so I have to do that before anything else. Also my friends wanted to start a youtube channel so planning for that has been biting me in the butt. But I was finally able to get this chapter up for you guys! (: I hope you enjoy it even tho it does suck ass and please be sure to give it a vote and leave me a comment please! KISS KISS ♥

Random Question: Do you ever get really bad pressure on youreself to where it just makes you want to stop everything and just cry? This has been me this past week! XD

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