*Zayn's POV*
Well I had woken up again and we are now heading over to my mothers to explain the news. I hope she takes it okay, its going to kill her when she hears. And they girls? They are going to be hurt and get destroyed by this, tyhery won't have their big brother around for long. And about Yazer? I think this is his dream just waiting to happen, he won't care if I was burning alive. I didn't know I started crying until I felt Liam wipe some away ever so lightly. He gives me a warming smile and pulls me closer to him, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I hold his hand and we walk up to the front porch. I knock three times and I hear footsteps running to the door.
I see Safaa push past Walihya and jump stright into my arms for a hug. I hug back, feeling the tears come back. I'm going to miss this, all of this. Liam and everything he does for me, my loving family and my new friends. I'm going to be missing out on it all because of this stupid disease. Safaa slowly pulls away when she notices me crying, which makes her start to cry.
"Oh no, Safaa please don't cry." She shakes her head then hugs me harder. "Then why are you crying Z?" I stand up, keeping her in my arms as I walk over to the kitchen were Mom and Yaser were standing. She looks over at me then quickly drops the plate in her hand, rushing over to my side. Now this only makes me cry hard then I already am. She takes Safaa away from me, who cries and kicks to get back to me, but she is then given to Ryan, who looks terrified. He takes her out the room and the others step in the doorway. I can't see them like this, its hurting my heart.
My mother then holds me and tries to comfort me, me slipping down and landing on my knees. I bury my head in my hands and scream and cry, I've never acted like this and I know its scaring everyone.
*Liam's POV*
I see Zayn hit the ground with his mother on his side as he begins to freak out and scream. Doniya and Walihya are clutched on my side, both with scared looks on their faces. I can tell they've never seen him like this and I never have either, its pretty scary. I feel my heart hurt got him, he's not taking this very well.
"Zayn, baby please calm down! Baby what's wrong?" I look over at Yaser and I see something in his eyes as he looks at Zayn, but I can't really make it out. Maybe he finally sees that Zayn needs his father in his life. That he needs more support in his life than he thinks.
"I can't! Not yet I just can't mommy!" I see tears running down his mithers face as he says that to her. She must really be taking this hard, even if she doesn't know the real reason why. I don't know what to do, all I can do is stand there and hold onto his sisters as they cry as well, seeing their brother in this state. Moments later we finally get him to calm down abit and sit at the table.
"Zayn, sweety you have to tell me what's wrong. I'm terrified for you." He let's out a shaky laugh before looking at her.
"You should be mommy, because I'm dying! There is nothing I can do anymore, I'm going to die!" I whisper something in Doniyas ear as I walk over to where they are. His mom covers her mouth and stands away from him. I hold her and try to comfort her, as I tried to do to everyone else.
"Zayn stop acting like that! You're not going to die, you're just sick. Tris, he has leukemia but he's not going to die. He has treatments but he's not taking this very well as you can see. Please calm down. Everyone just needs to calm down!" She looks at me with worry in his eyes and looks back over at Zayn.
"Zayn... why didn't you tell me?"
"We just found out yesterday. He had some type of idea that something was wrong with him but he didn't think that it was this bad." I say to her. Yaser walks over to just ad takes Trisha away from me, comforting her. Then he turns to Zayn.
"How dare you come into this house and scare the living shit out of everyone! I would-" and that's when I snap out of being the strong one for now. How dare he even say that.
"No Yaser, how dare you! He's not taking this well because he's scared out of his life. He's never had something like this before so he has every right to be acting like! How dare you be stuck up and blame all of this shit on him right now! You would what? I'd like to see you try and do something about him acting this way. I'm sorry that he made it this way but he just found out so he's still in shock! JUST LEAVE HIM BE FOR ONE FUCKING TIME!" Then it was Trisha's turn.
"You can't blame this on him Yaser! He's still young and doesn't know how to deal with the pain he has right now. You won't do anything to him as long as I'm here, that's my son! And yours too so at least show some respsect for him!" Yaser now has widen eyes and steps back away from us. He looks over at Zayn before walking out of the room.
I sigh and sit next to Zayn, rubbing his back and hugging him. Safaa runs back into the room and jumps on his lap again, still worked up.
{2 hours later}
We had just gotten back to Ruth's and thank god she is still on her trip. I had told her about Zayn and she's worried about me, even though I told her that's there is nothing to be worried about. But that's who she is, always worried about someone or something. But you have to give her credit, she's a very caring person. And that's probably the best thing that I love about her the most.
Zayn shuts the door and sighs, leaning back on the wall. I walk over to him, laying my head on his shoulder as he plays with the my hair. I kiss his neck and look atg him, lightly smiling to make him at least feel somewhat better. He smiles back before placing a long, yet simply kiss on my lips. We don't move, just stand there hilding each other, feeling one anothers lips on ours. Soon he pulls away and kisses me again, this time moving his lips against mine and it feels so right. I cup his face and pull him closer to me, not ever wanting to let him go.
He then begins to roam his hands all over my body, them slipping under shirt and him drawling circles on my skin. He then moves from my lips, over to my neck and lightly leaves tiny kisses. I move my head, giving him more access and his kisses get more sloppier. He finds me sweet spot and I moan out in pleasure. He smiles against my skin, biting the spot over and over again leaving a hickey probably. He kisses my Adam's apple all the way back up to my lips, slipping his tounge into my mouth.
As I let him roam my mouth freely, I feel his hands start to play with the belt on my pants. And I know what he wants, but I can't. Just not tonight. "Zayn... we can't." He pulls away from me and looks me in my eyes, stopping his actions before moving his hands slowly.
"Okay..." he pulls away from me and slowly walks over to the Living Room. But then I give in, me already being hard for him. I pull him back to me and kiss him hard on his lips, moving my hips against his. He smiles and reacts to my responce, moving back to my neck.
"You know... I've never done it in the Living Room before." He says in a sexy way, making me let out a moany laugh.
"Well neither have I so we are both in luck." He chuckles and then falls back on the couch, me climbing ontop of him. Kissing him again.
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HELLLO EVERYBODY! So I really didn't feel like writing the smut in detail as I really suck at it, so I jut left it out. And I'm sorry it took me awhile to update, I have no excuse. But if you liked the chapter be sure to give it a big thumbs up and leave me a comment if you can! (: KISS KISS ♥
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To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}
ФанфикZayn Malik is an average kid living a normal life. Since a little kid, Zayn never had many friends. He was always the quite kid and was bullied constantly. He has depression, anxiety, and he selfharms. His mother has no idea what Zayns life is like...
